when my love stops

.10.

(wait for the music)

Y/N P.O.V.

Today is Friday, which means today is my last working day of the week. The week has robbed me much of my remaining strength, what means, that I am very tired and just want to go home.

But luckily, today I have to get some last items from our apartment in Guro-gu. As I had done everything on my job, I decided to leave immediately to get through it as soon as possible.

I get in my car and drive off immediately. As the lights of Seoul fly past me, I listen to the music of the radio in a relaxed mood.

Parked in front of the huge building, I get out of the car and look up to the huge building.

Who knows how long I will not come here anymore ...

I notice how slowly the excitement rises in me and finally decide to take all my courage together and to go inside.

Arrived inside, I steer immediately to the elevator and greet some of my neighbors who are currently sitting in the lounge. I take the lift to the 13th floor and walk down the hall to our apartment ... room number 7.

Excited, I stop for a few seconds in front of the door, wondering if I should dare to retreat. But I know that I have to tackle it anyway, so why not immediately.

With shaky hands, I reach into my jacket pocket, get out the front door keys. I try in vain to hit the lock, but miss every time because I'm too restless.

-music

When I try again to hit the keyhole, the door opens with a jerk and I quickly lift my head up ...

to look at his face.

Visibly shocked from the sudden act, I let my hand fall down. I didn't turn off the gaze from him, our eyes are locked with each others. I could see his red eyes, what means that he cried so much like me.

I couldn't handle it anymore and looked away from him, I don't wanted to cry again infront of him. Grazing his shoulder, I walked into the apartment. I didn't say anything to him, because it would break my heart to hear his voice.

But all of a sudden I heard him sigh.

"Y/N please..." his voice cracked, he couldn't say anything more. I twitched as I heard it, it shattered my heart into a million pieces.

I turned around to look in his tear-swollen eyes, felt how my eyes were getting wet.

"J-Jungkook.." I stuttered, my hands began to shake more and more.

He started to make some steps near me, wanted to feel me again. But I stepped back, wasn't able to let him come near me.

"Don't do this." I said, wanted to stop him from moving. And surprisingly he did. Tears were streaming down his face, I could see the pain in them. I wanted to wipe them off, wanted to hug him so tightly. But I was to weak to move.

I turned around again, walked in the bedroom to get my last clothes. But sadly Jungkook followed me, stopped me from putting them in my luggage. I looked up at him again, felt his hand on mine again.

But I couldn't feel his warmth. It was like someone sucked his life out of him.

And that one was me...

He was cold like me as he left me alone the past months...

Left me alone crying in our bedroom, when I needed him the most.

But he wasn't there for me.

And now he feels what I felt.

But it makes me sad seeing him like this. I love him, but it's his fault. And now he has to feel the same like I did... more precisely do.

"Y/N please don't leave me like that." he ripped me out of my thoughts and my hands started to shake again.

I shook my head, dragged my hand away from his.

"How could you dare to say something like this. How could you, when you are the one who left me Jungkook." I stuttered, feeling a tear running down my cheek.

"Everyday I was crying at home, waiting for you to come home." I stepped back a little bit, don't wanted to be near him.

"But Y/N..."

"No Jungkook!" I shouted, couldn't handle it anymore.

"I spent my entire life with you... and what did I get in return? Nothing."

"I gave you a real love, a real happiness but what did you give me? Nothing."

"I give you all of me but what did you give me? Nothing."

"I'm doing my best to make you smile, make you happy. But at the end... I am the one who's broken."

"And it actually hurts.." I sigh, looking down on the floor.

"You've broke me.... for thousand times."

Teams were forming in my eyes, my voice was cracking slowly more and more: "But I don't know why I still couldn't stop loving you." suddenly your voice began to get more quite. I looked up at him again, my eyes were burning from the tears.

"So what do you want to hear from me Jungkook? That I forgive you that easily?"

With tears streaming down my face, I looked in his face. But there was nothing. The sparkle he had in his eyes faded away. Everything of him was empty.

He didn't say anything, just nodded and turned around.

He wanted to walk out of the room but suddenly stopped at the doorframe.

"Please... don't forget that I still love you, Y/N." And with that he left the room, closed the door behind him. Left me, again crying in our bedroom.

I couldn't hold me on my feet anymore and fell down on the floor. I bent my knees down and pulled my legs up to my upper body, wrapping my arms around it.

I thought, that I would survive this pain, but it feels like it gets more and more difficult. Everything around me is collapsing and I can't stop it.

The only one who could stop it is him...

'don't forget that I still love you...'

"I also love you Jungkook, with every bit of my heart." I mumbled to myself. I just wanted to forget everything around me. I wanted to turn the world and all my problems off, wanted to be alone.

I miss everything of him. And it feels like I am slowly dying. Dying on not having him on my side. Because he is all I need to live, all I need to be alive. And without him, there's nothing left for me. If I could go back in time, I would change everything, would do everything right. To make him happy. But sadly I can't.

I began to cry louder, let out everything of me. I buried my face in my knees.

And suddenly I felt someone, who is rapping his arms around me, I got pulled in a tight embrace. But I didn't react... thought it would just be one of my dreams. But it wasn't.

Because it was Jungkook, who was hugging you...

Knowing, that it would calm you down.

He just wanted to feel you, in the fear, that it could be the last time....

Maybe it is...

..sequel follows..