I'm Not A Bad Person|Eyeless Jack

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Entry 1. 12/25/15

So I just got a journal! I love my dad for this reason! He actually gets me, s/n, and b/n gifts unlike mom.

She makes me work all day. I never get time to read or draw. I will try and write as much as I can in this. I doubt I can fill this all up in a year. Hell this will take me three years!

But, I guess I want to start with the reason I wanted this. I suffer with Depression, Anxiety and Insomnia. These are commonly grouped together so this shouldn't be a shocker. But I discovered something recently. Whenever I go asleep I find myself in a house watching kids or parents getting killed.

Yeah could just be a nightmare but the scary part is they're in the news the next day. The exact people I see. I wish I could tell someone about this before they happen, but I can't.

It's a curse to be this way. It's like I'm a security camera. I watch people say their last words. Most of them are pleading for their life while others want these killers to take them. I catch the killers laughing at their victims, I've even seen someone take one of their organs.

It's something I never want to see again, but I can't stop it. I'm now scared to sleep. I'm also scared to sleep because when I do my moms boy toys comes in.

Recently mommy and daddy have been fighting. Daddy is with grandma, but she doesn't like me so I have to stay here.

But every night mommy's boy toy comes over he touches me. He hurts me and makes me feel like I'm better off dead.

I'm going to kill myself on Valentine's Day since I know he will definitely be here. I only have to put up with this a little longer.