I'm Not A Bad Person|Eyeless Jack

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-Don't you ever think about the fact that we all started because of a tiny thing called an atom. Without those things there wouldn't be air. Water. Us. Or the earth for that matter. Haha, get it? Matter? The earth is a solid which is matter hahahahah...kill me.

Anyway, hate to seem so DEEP. (Insert dirty joke here) but sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we weren't alive. Like we just watched down on the earth and slowly watch it decay.

It does worry me though. The fact that we all are going to die. Yeah it will take a while to get there- but when we die we either get buried or we get burned. Or decompose or maybe become zombies.

We can't decide where we end up in the after life, but we can choose where we want to go before we die. And I chose the psychopath route! I kill people for a living. I don't get money, I just get praise and satisfaction.

Anyway, I can totally go on with this topic. But me and Ej are a thing now. I want to take it slow. Very slow. I don't want to be hurt again. I don't know what I would do if he hurt me. What would happen to me. I've only slightly snapped. Will I go batshit crazy? My BPD isn't making this easier for me either. I already struggle enough with myself, I don't need another mental disorder! Or I can collect them like Pokémon cards."

I look back on the old entry. What a complete fucking idiot I was. They betrayed me. I thought I could trust them! They even told me they would be there for me!

"Y/n/n?" Slender walks into the library. "Oh I'm so sorry."

"No it's fine. I'm done anyway."

"What do you even write in there!" He spits out the word quickly.

"You know"

"N-no I don't."

"Oh yeah you do!" I stand up and slam the book on the table.

"What-"

"You invaded my personal privacy! You betrayed me! You didn't trust me! You were too selfish and wanted to figure out what I was hiding. I hide shit for a reason."

"How did you find out?"

"I have visions Mr. Slenderman. Bad ones and good ones. I see shit you don't want me to see!" At this point I'm on the brink of tears.

"Y/n?" Jack walks into the room.

"You too! You also betrayed me! You looked through my journal! Why!"

"I wanted to make sure you were okay!"

"You can't talk to me?!"

"I hardly knew you!"

"So looking through my shit makes it better? No it fucking doesn't! I'm disappointed in the both of you! You're both manipulative pieces of shit- just when I thought I found a home that wanted me.."

"I'm sorry-"

"Oh save your fucking apology for someone who truly cares. I'm going out, I'll be back in a few days, or maybe never." I push past slender and Ej. I kinda got a group outside the doors because I was yelling.

I walk into my room and get a small backpack with gloves and changes of clothes. I haven't killed anyone yet, no one knows me. I plan on keep my identity safe. As safe as can be before I slip up.

I throw my backpack on and grab a (f/c) scarf. "This can be my mask for now."

I continue down the stairs and walk out the front door and walk through the woods. "I hope I don't fuck this up."

I walk up to this old building. Me and hoodie would train here sometimes. I walk up to the second floor and step in front of some test dummies. I would practice combat on them. It was as close as I would get to a real human till I actually got my first kill.