It was our last time together.
Our last three hours in the city where it all began.
Soon enough you're going to leave me, us. I can't even try to explain how that makes me feel. I'm loosing a part of my soul and it hurts the more I start to think about it. The last two years were the best and worst of my life and I give all my thanks to you.
I remember how I moved away from this town and I had no one. I went to another school where I had to start a new life, where I had to find new friends. I couldn't make it far though. I couldn't stand to be alone. I didn't want to be sad forever. I asked myself if it's ever going to change? Am I going to feel this way forever? I was tired of life, tired of feelings.
Days by days went by and I realized 'fuck, I'm lonely'. I hated the way I was feeling. I wished not to feel anything anymore.
Eventually I found a way back to my old town, my home.
I came back and it felt like I wasn't me anymore. I had to start my old life again. It was like you restarted an old Computer with all the old memories. Except that everything changed and you had to adapt yourself again. Leaving this town behind had a big impact on everyone I knew. My best friend had to find new ones and I had to adapt myself to them.
That's where I met you. Soon enough you became my best friend too and I couldn't be happier about it all.
You understood me when no one did.
You listened to me complaining when no one wanted to hear my voice.
You had the best advice when everyone was speechless.
And even if you couldn't say a thing, you were there for me and I had a place to let my tears pour out.
Now you're leaving and I can't even try to explain how much it hurts me and my soul.
I guess life starts now. Everybody is going their way. Leaving our hometown into the big big world. We all have to leave our past behind us. But our memories will still remain as we think of how it was.
Our first parties together. The first time we all got drunk or high. Heartbreaks, headaches, misunderstanding, complains, laughter, tears and fights all of it. We went through all of this together and I can't believe it's all over.
I'm missing you and I can't believe that months will pass until we can meet again.
I wanted to leave this place forever and now that the time has come I don't want to. I don't want to leave the past behind. I don't want to start over and over again. It's all too much.
Can't we just stay stuck in time?
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Hey guys this is not really a part of the story and it has nothing to do with Miles or Alex
My best friend just went to Croatia because she is going to study there ( I'm living in Germany )
I haven't stopped crying ever since and I felt the need to write this
I'm a little bit emotional so sorry if this doesn't interest you
the next chapter of the bad thing is coming this week
at least I hope so
