A Twisted Fate - A Jeff The Killer Story [BxB]

Chapter 8

• Jeff •

Dear Jeff,
I don't know how to say this so Ill just write it down. I like you a lot, since the first day I came here I just couldn't stop thinking about you. I know you probably don't care to much for me, Im just some worthless human in your eyes, thats how everyone sees me as, besides you wouldn't like me back but I just couldn't hide it anymore, I had to do something so I wrote this note instead. I know you probably think I'm some faggot now, I don't blame you everyone does I just wanted to finally tell you. I don't know what else to do, I like you so much and I don't know what it is, maybe it was the fact that you actually treated me like I had a value, like I meant something, you treated me like normal and with respect. You treated me Like a person and I hate knowing I cant be honest with you and I just wish things could be easier like some stupid fairy tale ending were everything works out for once. I guess I'm pretty stupid for thinking that or to think I ever had a chance with you and honestly why would I, like you would even like guys anyways. I just don't want to loose my only friend. I already lost my family, I don't want to get in the way of what ever friendship we might have, no matter how petty it is, it means everything to me. I'm really sorry though.
~ Kyler

I looked at the bottom of the note and saw it was todays date this was written. I put it down and looked up, sort of in shock at what I just read. This whole time Kyler has liked me but he thinks I don't care about him, he thinks he's just some petty human without a value.

Why did he write this? Why was it in his sketch book? Was I supposed to read this?

I put the note back inside his sketchbook where I found it and placed it back on the desk. I stood up and went to go find Kyler, I have to talk to him about this. Why does he think such negative things about himself, I can't say I know Kyler like the back of my hand but I know he shouldn't be thinking such untruthful things.

I ran down stairs to see him asleep on the couch. I swore he wasn't there when we got in, I would have seen him. Weird. I walked up to him and sat down beside his small sleeping figure and just looked at him for a moment.

I don't know much about your life Kyler, but I'll be sure to change that.

I decided to stay and wait for him to wake up so I can talk to him about his note. I just hope he doesn't get mad at me for reading it. All I wanted to do was look through some of his drawings again, then the paper fell out when I picked up his book. I saw my name and I couldn't help but read it.

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I heard Kyler shift and move from under the blanket and his eyes slowly fluttered open, he sat up slowly and rubbed his eyes before looking over at me and jumped.

"Shit." He said, in surprise to see me, he held his chest like one tends to do if they get startled.

"Hey Kyler can we talk?" I asked moving over to sit beside him. He looked at me for a moment, as if he was deciding on what to say but then quickly looked away.

"Um I can't right now I have to go and clean up." He stood up, grabbed his blankets and ran back up the stairs. I didn't bother to chase after him, if he doesn't want to talk I wont force him.

I thought it was best to not bother him, I don't know if he knows what I want to talk to him about but clearly he wasn't interested in talking and Im not one to push someone out of their comfort zone just to do so and frankly, I do care about Kyler so I don't want to make things anymore difficult for him. Call me cliché and soft but I do have respect for others.

I got up from the couch and decided to head back upstairs to join EJ and Ben and play some more games.

As I got to EJ's room I stopped and glanced down the hall and saw Kyler and I's room with the door shut. I really need to talk to Kyler and get all of this sorted out. I don't want him to get his head filled with all these none sense thoughts but its clearly not the right time.

I sighed before walking into EJ's room and sat down on the bed beside Ben as him and EJ played Mario Kart, Ben in the lead of course. I decided Im going to leave Kyler alone for a bit and talk to him when he seems more comfortable. Maybe he just needs some space.