A Twisted Fate - A Jeff The Killer Story [BxB]

Chapter 11

*Trigger Warning*

• Kyler •

I woke up once I heard the door close slightly, I sat up and saw Jeff was gone, it must have been him who just left. I hope he wasn't mad I was wearing his sweater, I couldn't find anything comfortable enough to put on last night and I saw his sweater and slipped it on. To be randomly honest, he smells really good.

I went to get up but my whole lower body ached causing a sharp pain to shoot up my spine and I whimpered. All the horrors from last night soon flooded back to my mind and I felt like breaking down.

But that's just what he would want.

I got up wincing at the feeling and walked to the bathroom, I opened the counter drawers rummaging through the mess in search for something when finally I saw it. Jeff's razor. I grabbed it walked back over to the bed and sat down on the edge of it.

I rolled the sleeves of his sweater up to keep it out of the way while also not wanting to get anymore blood on it though I doubt it would matter. I opened the blade and held the handle of it and looked down at my wrist. My vision got blurry from my eyes beginning to water but I stayed calm.

I had my drug and it was the blade that Kissed my skin in the past. The withdrawals were bad before but now, I just need to over dose.

I placed the blade on my wrist and watched as I dragged it across my pale skin causing the now fresh cut to open up and fill with my bright metallic blood and roll off my arm onto the floor.

It's been a while since I've done this and I forgot what it felt like.

People have their heroine, cocaine and meth, but this is the only drug I needed.

Call me crazy but it helped me cope and at this point I didn't know what to do anymore. I was clean for a while, Ashton would of been proud but it was only a matter of time my relapse would come.

I sighed once I made a few more marks into my skin and I felt like a whole weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

For now anyways. I knew this feeling wasn't going to last forever.

I looked back down at my wrist and watch the blood drip down my arm and land of the floor by my feet, creating a pool of red.

Then it hit me.

What am I doing ..

I bent over and just broke, I wasn't going to hold my emotions back anymore and I don't care how weak I may have seemed I needed to cry.

And that's what I did.

I sat there, crippled over in pain as my lower body ached and my arm stung.

"Kyler stop!" I suddenly heard and looked at Jeff standing in the door way as my watery eyes cleared.

I looked down at my arm once more.

Fuck ...

Jeff ran up to me and kneeled down and grabbed my arms, I looked at him for a moment before I turned away and just breathed.

I closed my eyes and told myself to relax. Im okay.

"Kyler." He said softly. "What's going on?"

I let out a shaky sigh but I didn't want to tell him what happened, or how I've been feeling.

About him.

About everything.

I know he read my note and he didn't bother talk to me, everything was just getting to me I couldn't take it but I don't know if I can tell him. If I should tell him. Maybe finally talking to him will help make things better.

Maybe I should of just done that from the start.

• Jeff •

Kyler stayed silent. I know partly of why he did this, because of Ben. It still feels like there's more to it though. Maybe this has something to do with him not talking to me, or the note.

"Kyler you can tell me anything I won't get mad or upset I just want to know what happened." I softly rubbed his arm as his blank and dead expression softened.

He sighed again before bringing up the courage to talk. "I was with Ben last night, we eneded up doing ... you know ... and I didn't want to but I was afraid to tell him. I know you read my note I didn't want you to read it but it was stupid of me to keep it. When you stopped talking to me I thought you were mad about it so I started to get my mind off of it and hang out with Ben but he ..."

"Raped you."

He looked up at me as his eyes began to get glassy, I knew he didn't want to say it or even hear it, but what happened was serious and I don't want him to think avoiding and ignoring it is the right thing to do.

This hole time he thought I was mad with him because of the note, he tried to force himself into doing something he didn't want to do to forget about me, whether he felt forced to hang out with Ben or not, what happened between them was wrong.

I sighed. I was kind of upset to hear all of this but now I know, I finally got an answer to what's been going on. Maybe if I tried to talk to him more or didn't wait so long to say something, all of this could of been avoided but neither of us could of seen this coming. 

"I freaked out when I saw you reading my note, I knew you wouldn't like me back and I didn't want to lose your friendship." I kissed the top of his head and rubbed my thumb across his hand softly.

"Kyler you never gave me a chance to tell you how I felt."