"Oli?" I questioned rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I sat up looking around the room "ohh" I remembered he had left. I put my hand on his side of the bed and sighed. I hate the silence of being alone in this house. I needed to get something to occupy me but right now I just need coffee.
I moped along down stairs and turned on the coffee maker and flipped through the channels turning on doctor who. I got up and walked to the kitchen but then I thought- I need something to occupy me, something that can live with me... a puppy. I quickly drank my coffee and called Oli
"please be awake please be awake please be-
"hello?" I could tell he had just woken up his voice was coated with sleep, raspy, and he slightly mumbled his words. I missed this.
"I want a puppy" I pleaded
"wait what?" the sleepy voice disappeared and faded into confusion
"I'm so lonely I need something to make me happy like not be so alone. it's too quiet"
"why are you asking me?" he giggled
"because it's your house, I don't know if you wouldn't want a puppy"
"alex it's our house now, and a puppy would be fucking adorable"
I smiled
"good soooo I'll FaceTime you when I'm picking one out later today?"
he agreed and we said good bye. he had to go do a signing or something along those lines.
I drank the rest of my coffee and went up stairs, I turned on the shower and played my music. Chelsea Grin blasted through my speakers I hummed along to Waste Away then Recreant. I switched to a different band and played Of Mice & Men. I started to get out of the shower wrapping myself in my towel and using another to dry my hair. I changed into a big maroon sweater and black leggings. I didn't put on much makeup just liquid foundation, cover up, powder and mascara. I straightened my hair and got my bad and keys and drove to the tattoo parlor.
when I entered I was greeted by a flood of familiar workers.
Josh took me aside and showed me the stencil for my tattoo, I read over every word making sure the lyrics were right; spelled correct and in the font i wanted. I loved it.
we sat down, I laid my arm on the rest and he started. I played of mice & men in honor of my new tattoo. this was one I was going to be proud of.
"why this song and why here?" josh started to make small talk
"it's kinda just what got me through it" I hadn't talked about it in a while
"I remember that, your sister and I were terrified. I had no idea what the hell we were going to do to stop you. we were worried"
"yeah then mom and dad found out and it went down hill" I took out my headphones to engage in the conversation better.
"yeah more of your dad though, mom wanted to help but he.." josh stopped and kept tattooing
"he wanted me out." I finished his sentence for him
"you were barely 13 I don't get how he could want to kick you out. good thing your mom got rid of him"
I laughed at his remark, after all it was true. as each hour passed by I flipped through songs, posted pictures and texted multiple people.
after 5 hours it was done, it was only words. a lot of words but just words so it wasn't as long as it could have been.
"okay go take a look" josh said as I mocked the words. it seemed like every tattoo artist used the same words every time. I looked in the mirror twirling my arm in different directions. I just smiled. josh walked over "do you like it?" I jumped on him and hugged him. "oh I think this is good?" he questioned laughing
Josh brought me over to wrap my arm up, "hurrryyyy I have to go look at puppies" josh just froze. "uh" he looked shocked and confused
"Oli left for tour and I don't want to be in a house alone all the time long story.. keep wrapping!!!" I yelled motioning for him to go on. he did then his eyes widened "YOU MOVED IN WITH HIM?"
"yes now can I go"
he nodded "but you will text me about this later"
I laughed "yeah yeah yeah just come over"
I left, got into my car and got directions to the closest pet store that had adoptions.
I went into the store and walked to the adoption area where they had all the puppies locked in cages. this made me sad but at the same time excited to get one out. I walked through the areas with the dogs, all the big dogs were cute but I don't think I could keep up with them all the time so I decided on a small dog.
there were only a few breeds of small dogs but they were all so cute I wanted them all.
an older lady in her mid 30's maybe even 40's came up to me "looking for anything in particular?" she asked
I have her a friendly smile "yeah a puppy but when it's fully grown a smaller dog I think is what I want"
she let out a giggle probably because of my uncertainty. she led me to a small group of smaller dogs and puppies that wouldn't grow to be too big.
I picked up every single fucking puppy in the place and I fell in love with 2. a blue/grey boy French bulldog, and another boy black teacup Pomeranian.
now it was time to show Oli.
I pressed the FaceTime button and waited, he finally answered and I was so happy to see him.
"babe" I shrieked from excitement not caring about the weird looks I got
"is it time to get a puppy?" he smiled
"okay so I picked out two that I like but I'm pretty sure I know which one I want... readddyy?" I picked up the black Pomeranian and showed him, "I don't know about this one he sheds a lot" I frowned "so this one is my top choice" I said kissing the French bulldogs head. "I agree" I could hear Oli laugh through his words. "what are you gonna name him?" Oli questioned.
" I was thinking milo?"
"I love it" he smiled " and I love you.. 2 and a half weeks babe" he smirked
"I can't wait, but for now I have to buy this dog" I laughed "I love you too"
"see you in 2 weeks baby"
we both hung up and my heart dropped a little. I sighed
"that was daddy milo" I said in the type of voice used to talk to babies. I could feel the awkward stares from people around me. I got a basket and filled it with dog food, a small dog bed, and a yoda chew toy, I got him a little baby blue collar. I'm pretty sure I spent too much. as soon as I saw how much it was I almost screamed. but it was for my new baby and for some reason i had this weird mood swing that made me just not care.
I got into the car with Milo, and all his new stuff in the back seat.
"let's go home baby" i said driving home with Milo sitting on my lap
