If not us, who? If not now, when? | Muke Clemmings

Chapter 6

Song ideas for this part:
- Crazy In Love - Kadebostany (cover)
- Breathe Me - Jasmine Thompson (cover)

I was sitting in the studio, came earlier from other boys... My thoughts were again somewhere else... and I liked it... I liked it to be alone for a while... to think about everything... but then I saw Calum and Ashton leading Michael trough the room while he is playing games on his mobile... Usual day, I thought.

"Hey Luke, what's up!", Ashton sent me a small wave.
"Nothing...Just thinking about the tour...", I stretched. 
"Yeah man, it's in like 3 WEEKS!! It's gonna be crazy.", Calum was more than excited.

While waiting for the rest of the team, Michael and I were reading crazy tweets from the Fam and everything was okay until Emma came... Then Michael moved back to his own little world.
"Hey guys!", Emma smiled. She was shinning like an Angel!
Ashton and Calum were talking to Emma so I though it was right time to talk to Michael.
"Michael?", my face was serious this time while his eyes looked at me full of... hope or... something. I really can't explain that look but... there was also pain for some reason.
"Is everything okay? You didn't told me how was your meeting with Melinda..."
"Well...Um...she was...hurt...and...I understand her...", he was fighting with words.
"Be more concrete.", I ordered.
Michael sighed and rolled eyes: "I met her, told her everything I have and then she left and I got drunk, is that what you want to hear?!"
"Mikey. I want to help you so hard, but-", I already know where this leads. He is alwaays so closed when it comes to feelings...
"I don't want your help! Okay?!", he yelled, causing Emma, Calum and Ashton to turn around. Michael went out, bumping in the rest of the team (songwriters, compositors,...) which were just opening the door...
"Michael is...um...a bit angry...", Cal really didn't know what to answer but we surely do not need troubles.
Then he looked at me and Ashton added: "...but he will...um...be back..."
I didn't know what to do. It was surely my fault for something but I really don't know what I did to my bro...
Soon everyone started talking and I was just waiting for Michael to come back... It was just a couple of minutes but it seemed like hours! I turned to everyone and said: "Guys... I don't feel well... Can we postpone the rehearsal for tomorrow?"
The big guy who is responsible for rehearsals tilted his head to side: "Tour starts in a three weeks. You must sound perfect! Alright. You can guys go home but this MUST NOT happen again."
Ashton was clearly worried: "Bro, what's wrong? Do you want me to drive you home?"
"No need! I'll be okay, don't worry.", I was making him sure that I'm fine.
"If you say so", he said, not really sure in what I just said.

I went out, not waiting for Emma or anyone.

-

I laied on my bed for couple of hours. Ashton, Calum and Emma were calling me constantly but I didn't felt like talking... It was weird...Michael didn't call me. It's 5pm... In this time, he would call me to ask me if I want to play video games in his room or go to some pub or things... My phone lighted up. It was Cal.

Calum: Bro where are you and Michael? Are you like fucking or something and 'cause of that you don't want to come to our house or answer the phones?

Wait. What? Michael isn't at our 5SOS home? Something weird is going on. I called him... and I was calling him for an hour. That's it. I'm going to his home.

After a couple of minutes I was in front of his door. He told me earlier today that he will be alone home so I got the keys which were under the mat.
"Mikey?", no one answered.
"Michael? You here?", still no answer. My voice trembled.
I went upstairs and went to his room. I looked around the room but he wasn't there. I called him one more time before entering the next open door: his bathroom.
"Michael?", I sighed loudly.
With every letter I said I was getting more and more in his room and my heart was beating faster and faster. I had a strange feeling about everything.
And I was right because...