If not us, who? If not now, when? | Muke Clemmings

Chapter 19

Song ideas for this part:
- Therapy - All Time Low
- Blue Ocean Floor - Justin Timberlake

The rest of the day I spent bobbing around Sydney streets. Nothing could make me not think about Michael. Maybe I should just go over there? No, Luke. No. He will kill you for taking his few minutes to explain yourself. Ugh, my brain will explode!

Michael's POV
Dear Luke,
Few hours ago, you sent me that message... I didn't reply... Just please don't come Luke. I'll jump in your hands just when I see your beautiful, Heaven blue eyes... And I don't want that. I'm mad at you... You broke my heart, you broke me.

I closed that notebook and went to Mrs. Antonia's. She was smiling like always, "Welcome Michael!"
"Thank you...", I mumbled.
"How are you feeling? Can I see your notebook?", she stretched our her hand. I was feeling skeptic about this one... I don't know... I'm not an opened person. "Um... here you go Mrs."
She immersed in reading. After a few moments later she was swallowing a lump, "Um... Michael.. I... think you should stop writing to Luke.... You should write something more relaxing and this... this will upset you even more..."
I don't care what she says. I'm in love with you.

When I finished talking with her I didn't felt like going home... I went to the place we used to hang before we become famous, that cool park....
I walked to the bench we were always sitting on, not even bothering to look around. I closed my eyes and tried to breathe... But I can't. There is a huge stone on my heart when I'm without you.

Someone sat next to me. I wanted so hard to think about something else, but now, it's even more impossible. It's Michael! I thought. I must make things right. But I don't know from where to start...
"Michael...", I whispered, almost unnoticed.
The red haired boy turned now facing me, he flinched a bit but he was still sitting there.
"I...I'm-", he interrupted me, shaking his head slowly, closing his eyes: "No...It's...it's my fault....", he sighed from the bottom of his heart.
"Mikey I...", I'm able to say it. I'm feeling stupid because everything is going this way.
He put his hand on the bench, closer to me. He was shaking a bit but this time he wanted to make sure what I feel. The older boy looked away and I decided to react by putting my cold hand on his. He flinched again but this time Mikey sent me a small smile looking at me in disbelief: "You..."
He was having troubles with words and I knew already what he wanted to ask: "Yes. I do."

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We were in Michael's house. He was alone and it felt good to be alone with him on some private place. We were sitting on the floor next to his bed talking about random things untill the situation changed.
"Why did you do that?", Michael wondered.
"Did what?", I was clearly confused.
"Why did you broke me? I mean... you first ruined me and now we are sitting here talking...", Michael was right. I was completely confused because my brain and heart were disjointed.
That wasn't all what Michael had to say, he continued talking: "...you knew that I will jump in your hands no matter w-"

I didn't know what should I answer, I jumped over him quickly kissing him on the lips and he wanted more. He leaned into me getting my piercing between his teeth and I moaned. My hands were finding their way under Mikey's shirt and I felt his muscles straining. This is making me so horny, I thought. I knew I made the right decision because I needed Michael as much as I need to breathe, he is my drug and I can't get enough. I wanted more, I needed more. Soon...

ღAuthors noteღ
Let's save somethin for later! Those smutty parts might be stupid because Imma amateur but I hope you will be able to forgive me! :)
(and I'm sorry this part is a lil bit late!)