If not us, who? If not now, when? | Muke Clemmings

Chapter 14

Song ideas for this part:
- Young and Hopeless - Good Charlotte
- Victims of Love - Good Charlotte

The whole night chatting with Michael was feeling so right! I really think he was doing better... But this time my feelings were totally fucked up. I don't know what's happening with me.

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I don't know when I fell asleep but the amazing guitar solo from Good Charlotte's Young and Hopeless, woke me up.
"Yes?!", I don't know who it was, my eyes were still closed.
"Hey babe, why so frustrated?", a cute voice came trough the phone. It was Em.
"Oh hey, it's you!", I lowered voice.
"I woke you up, huh?", yep. She know me so well.
"Yep.", I smiled although she couldn't see that.
"Baby, do you know what time is it?", she was worried a bit.
"Nope.", I had no idea.
"It's 2pm. TWO PM!", she almost yelled.
"Oh cool.", Can you please leave me alone now babe?
"Was there some party I don't know about?", she was disgusted by the fact she didn't know about some party.
"Nah", I WANNA SLEEP.
"Hmm...aright.. I'll come over later. Love ya!", she hung up and I turned to the other side, continuing with my dreams.

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When I got up I walked down the stairs, straight in the kitchen.
"Oh! Look who got up!", Jack smiled.
What day is it when Jack is here?
"Good day.", I mumbled, not really sure what time is it, "Mummy..."
"Sit down, it's lunch time.", she already know what is my problem. Wait... Lunch time? So it's round 4... Oh man... Michael you little bastard, what are you doing to me?
"What were you doing last night when you sleep so much?", Jack tried to ask me quietly but he couldn't stop giggling so mum looked at us with a puzzled look.
"Um...Nothing? What day is it?", I changed the subject. Jack shocked his head slowly.
"Tuesday, why?", he continued to eat, sill looking into my eyes.
"What are you doing here then?", I was so clueless... He has job at this time.
"We had a day off and-", my phone ranged causing me to form with my lips a Excuse me. I went in the living room. It was just Michael and I don't know why was I so happy when I saw the caller ID.

"Hey there bro! What's up?", I was chewing food that was already in my mouth.
"Hi... I'm on my way to Mrs. Antonia's...", he sighed, too bored for leaving his computer games at home.
"How are you feeling?", have I become too rusty these days for staying till late or what?
"Luke, I told you I'm doing fine, stop asking me!", he snapped. He was always a closed person about feelings but... I didn't mean nothing wrong by this.
"What the... I'm thinking about our texting last night...", I explained.
"Oh...um...sorry bro. Huh, are you tired u little baby?", he teased me.
"Oh shut up.", I rolled my eyes even thought he couldn't see me.
"Hey, listen, I must go now... I'm in front of Mrs. Antonia's...", he wasn't feeling comfortable about this.
"Alright bro, see ya 'round!", I tried to sound positive.

"Who was that?", mum couldn't be more obvious. She already knew.
"Um...Michael?", I was acting like I don't know what she alludes.
"How is he doing?", Jack broke mum's and my awkward staring at each other.
"Well...he is...um...better...", I looked away, somewhere through the window and whispered to myself, "...I hope..."
The rest of the lunch I spent looking down at my plate while mum was asking Jack about job and things... All I could think about was Michael... I was a bit scared. Question am I...gay? came into my head and I couldn't get rid off it. Hey Luke, shut the fuck up, you love girls. You love boobs, buts, red hair and... Wait what? My own mind was arguing and killing me in the concept and it couldn't get more obvious that I...maybe had some feelings for Michael... just a bit.
"Luke!", Jack yelled and I flicked.
"Huuuh?", I mumbled, confused about what's happening around.
"Your phone is ringing you idiot!", he smilled.