SongWriter Book Series

21: Goodbye

Serenity

12-24-96

It was Christmas Eve and everything was good and absolutely perfect. Its always a good time around Christmas and I just love this holiday the most.

Pac called me and told me to stop by his house because he wanted to give me something. That was actually perfect not going to lie because I got him something too.

"I will be right back." I told De.

"Okay." Devante said.

-

"Merry Christmas baby girl." Pac gave me a hug and it felt like he didnt want to let go.

"Merry Christmas Tupac." I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"Here you go." I smile handing him his gift.

"Oh shit, thanks baby girl." Pac smiled.

He opened it and it was a custom made jacket. He immediately did a pose after trying it on and I snapped a photo giggling.

"Here is your present." Pac told me as he handed it over slowly.

I took it in my hand and opened it up and what was revealed was beautiful. It was a chain and a bracelet. I was definitely matching set he bought for me.

"Wow this is beautiful. Thank you. I love it so much!" I smiled as I pulled him into a hug.

"Wait, wait. You got one more present. But close your eyes for this one." Pac told me.

"Okay. Because I have one more present also." I blushed and closed my eyes actually following his directions I didn't even peek.

"Open them."

I open my eyes slowly to see him holding a ring in front of me. My heart dropped.

"Dont freak out, its just a promise ring. " Pac told me sensing I was about to freak. "Promise me that you will always stay true to yourself. And promise to love your boy forever."

I wiped my tears when he stared me in the eye very seriously. "Yes, I promise."

"And I promise you that I will always be there for you. Forever and always. No one can break our bond. So what is my other gift?" Tupac asked me. 

I pulled out a box. He look confused. 

"I wonder what it is?" Tupac asked me. 

"Open it." I smiled. 

It was a pregnancy test.

"You are pregnancy with my baby?" Tupac ask me. 

Started to cry. "Yes."

Tupac smiled he was so happy. It brought tears too my eyes. "Im going to be a father. I am so excited I wonder what we are having?" He asked. 

"I don't know just yet. ITs still early." 

"If we have a boy I want name him after me okay? And ifs a girl name her True." He told me. 

"Okay. I will."I hug him.

"Does De know?" Tupac ask me.

"No he doesn't, Im too scared to tell him." 

"Well you gotta tell him baby." Tupac said. 

"I will soon."

I looked at him and kissed him on the cheek. He pulled me into his embrace and after a few seconds he gave me another kiss my cheek a few times. And one on my lips.

"Are you still coming to the dinner tonight?" I asked him.

"Oh fasho. I will be there. I might be a little late but I will be there. I promise." Tupac looked at me and smiled nodding my head.

"Well thanks for the gifts I love them all." I said to him.

"No problem, Thanks for the Jacket its dope I'm going to put this on tonight. And most importantly the baby news, you just made me the luckiest guy in the world." He told me doing a slight turn making me laugh.

"Love you girl." Tupac said.

"I love you too Tupac." I replied back giving him one last hug before officially heading back home..

-

Everyone was here but Tupac. I know he said he'd be a few minutes late but it's been over an hour. I kept calling him. He did answer the first time and told me that he was going to be 20 minutes late but now its been 1 hour and he's still not here.

"I feel like something is wrong." I told Devante

"What do you want me to do?" Devante asked me with an attitude.

"Are you really going to do this right now?" I asked him. Devante just walked away. I swear I don't have time for his shit tonight. I just want to know if Pac is okay.

I opened the front door to get some fresh air because my nerves were all over the place right now. And I saw Tupac finally pulling in making my worry ease instantly.

"Thank god you are okay, I was getting worried." I said rushing up to his car.

"This blackish greenish car keeps on following me and it took me a while to get them off my tail." Tupac explained to me with worry in his eyes.

"That is so weird. You think its Suge's people?" I asked him.

"Shit I dont know. But come on, I want some of your food." Tupac said as he got out the car and kissed my cheek. I wrapped my arm around him and that is when I heard gun shots and my arm was no longer around his body. The car immediately drove off and Tupac was on the ground bleeding.

"DEVANTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!." I screamed as loud as I could.

"Tupac you better stay with me. You promised me." I said. Someone called the police because within minutes I could hear sirens approaching. Pac was still breathing and the cops kept asking him who shot him. I was upset because they should be getting him in an ambulance.

"FUCK YOU!" Tupac yelled. That was the last thing he said because the police instructed the paramedics to taking him to the hospital. I called his momma and his crew to tell them what hopsital he was going to before rushing inside the house to let everybody else know.

-

"Are you okay?" Devante ask me when he noticed me shaking.

"No Devante, I'm not okay." I walked outside to get some fresh air this was just too much for me right now.

After a few minutes I felt someone tap my shoulder and it was Devante. "Come here." I walked into his embrace and I cried into his chest. It felt nice to be in his arms again.

"Everything will be okay. Pac is strong. He is going to be okay. I'm just glad you are okay." Devante kissed my forehead trying his best to reassure me. I wish I could take this pain away.

6 days later

12-29-96

I was walking towards his room just doing my daily visit as soon as visiting hours reopened. But I noticed everyone was running towards his room. So I started running. When I walked to his room I heard a ringing sound and his mother was yelling at the nurses to stop.

He was gone. Right before my eyes. I started to cry and rushed towards his beside touching his arms and his head.

"You promised me. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME TUPAC." I started to cry harder. "I hate this. I love you to much to let you go." I whispered heartbroken. "But.. you told me that you will love me forever and always. And that you would always look out for me." I added. "Goodbye Tupac. I love you." I frowned kissing his cheek one more time and then his hand. It was really hard for me to leave his room because this was the last time I will see him. But I need to give his mother and his family time to see him.