when phil woke up this morning beside dan, he couldnt help but grin, then fall back onto the pillow with a content sigh. it's not every morning he wakes up happy, but he seems to whenever he wakes up next to dan.
he hears a light yawn from his side and his let's his grin turn into a full smile, before rolling onto the side closest to the yawn.
dan's eyes flutter open and he let's a small smile then let's his eyes shut slowly, a few seconds pass and his eyes open and he sits up, "what are you doing here?! I'm....I'm-" he stutters pulling his blanket up to cover more of his naked body.
phil rolls his eyes and chuckles, "you're acting like I've never seen you naked before," he sits up and let's the blanket fall onto his lap. dan sits up quickly and pulls the blanket up to his neck
"y-yeah but this is a little different," he mutters and stands slowly, wrapping the blanket tightly around his body.
"how? I mean...well I get how. but you dont like...regret it. do you?" phil asks slowly before getting up and pulling on his boxers he found close to the door.
dan bites his lip and goes to his dresser, pulling out gym shorts and slipping them on quickly.
"well..not exactly. i just..i think," he sighs and plops back into the bed, "I dont know."
Phil sits next to him, "what aren't you so sure about? Are you not sure about us? because I feel like I should really be able to know that now- so I don't get my hopes too high."
dan messed with his fingers, "I...I love you Phil. I still do, i never stopped. I'm just...worried."
the punk scooted closer, "why? what's so wrong about being in love dan?" he let the mans head fall lightly onto his shoulder.
"nothing wrong with being in love Phil, I'm just scared about what will happen next."
Phil looked down at his sadly, "what do you mean? I'm not leaving Dan. I couldnt take leaving you again, I wont put either rof us through that again. I cant live properly without you, my whole life is fixated around being with you forever. Please let me be with you forever."
Dan sat up and turned to face him, worry written all across his face, "but what if you get bored of me?"
phil sighed and Dan looked down at his own feet, "dan please.."
"it was a stupid question..i know," dan muttered and Phil shook his head before standing the dropping to his knees in front of him.
"no no no, it's not a stupid question. I just..I hate that you think that id ever get bored of you. if I thought you were boring I wouldnt have talked to you in the first place Dan, I wouldnt have been crushing on you for years before I asked you out. I wouldnt have stayed up all night researching how to act cool on a date, for you. but I did, because
..everytime you take center stage of my life and I feel like you're so out of my league, but then you look at me the same way I look at you and I remember that we're perfect for each other. please dan. please let us be perfect for forever...marry me," he couldnt help but let the few tears that were building up in his eyes, fall. when he saw soft concern cross dans face he thought
this is it. im going to get rejected for the second time with this man.
he knew he couldnt handle that, he would probably leave the country if that happened. or die...whichever came first. so he got up off the ground and started getting dressed, not looking at the brown haired boy sitting on his bed.
"okay, i get it. I'll....I'll leave." phil muttered and pulled on his jacket feeling the leather help his heart harden.
"phil, come back and sit down. please," dan said softly, and the punk turned around and faced him- watching tears fall from his beautiful brown eyes.
he couldnt help but go back and sit by him.
"phil...i want to spend way more than forever with you. but if that's what i can get...then yes. we can be perfect together- forever," he smiled and phil let out the breath he didnt realize he was holding in, before dan leaned over and pressed their lips together.
when phil pulled away, he looked into Dan's eyes-both were blurred with tears-," forever" he whispered.
dan kissed his nose lightly, "forever and always."
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