Rewind Reverie

You're Like a Different Person

Getting back into the swing of things is a lot easier than I thought. Maybe it's due to being excited about having something challenging to do rather that sit around and be a good little housewife, keeping her house and her husband's reputation in tact.  My combined knowledge of the present and the future began to settle in nicely, which made focusing on my classes much easier.  It's amazing what you manage to remember despite being out of the classroom for twenty-eight years.

Lauren and Sadie have been all over me since my miraculous fall on Monday.  I can't say I blame them.  It was a pretty hard fall and I know it startled a ton of people.  I get stares in the hallway, people wondering if I'm doing okay.  Still, I feel so guilty.  The more I've settled in, the more I remember all the things I don't want to.  

My roommates, my friends - they all think I'm crazy.  Ari was quick to come around - Sadie and Lauren not so much.  Then again, I am...a bit enthusiastic about showing them affection.  I can't help but hug them at least once a day and thank them for being so awesome.  Lauren took it in stride, smiling while asking me if I had a fever, if I felt lightheaded, or if I had other adverse symptoms.  That didn't surprise me.  The daughter of a nurse and a paramedic, Lauren is working hard to follow in her parent's footsteps.  Even if she wasn't studying to be a nurse, she's the type of person who'd lend a helping hand to a complete stranger.  She's a natural healer.

Sadie, on the other hand, threatens to add several knots on my head.  

Sadie...is not an affectionate person.  She is hardboiled with a flame tongue.   I guess that's to be expected of someone who wants to become a lawyer.  Unlike Lauren and I, who come from middle class backgrounds, Sadie was raised poor by a loving single mother.  She had to grow up quickly and probably learned a few lessons she could have done without.  I would never want to cross her.  She's the type of person that will swiftly make you regret doing such a stupid thing.

Still,  I admire her determination.  Beyond that hard exterior lies a woman who wants to give the world back to her dear mother.  There's nothing wrong with that?

Together, Lauren and Sadie seem like the kind of pair that wouldn't work, since Lauren is so loving and Sadie, well, isn't.  But that's what worked about them.  Lauren could be kind to Sadie while respecting her boundaries. And Sadie would kill anyone who ever tried to harm Lauren.  

Where did I fit in all of this?  I guess was the happy medium.  Before, I wasn't even a part of the equation. I was the friend that didn't seem to fully fit in because I made it a point to distant from everyone.  Now that I wasn't so guarded, I let people see more of my personality.  Both sweet and sour, kinda like Lauren, a little like Sadie.  With my blunt bangs and stylish clothing, I look every bit the business major I desire to be, albeit a little unapproachable.  But with Lauren and Sadie at my side, I'm humanized.  

With this new lease on life, I could appreciate them better, quirks and all.  Looking back, I know I took them for granted. We were all friends, but I never allowed myself to really to bond with them the way Sadie and Lauren bonded with each other. I think I just wanted to wallow in my own self-pity. Feel sorry for myself after my future murder dumped me.  Had my head so far up my ass because of all my family issues that I closed myself off.

I'm not doing that again. 

"I swear to God, don't you dare hug me while I'll having my coffee, Finn," Sadie growls as I stride into the kitchen, ready for another day at school.  The steadiness of her voice as threatens my entire life puts ice in my blood.   It's enough to make me sit halfway across the room.  "If you try to it, I won't hesitate to throw it in your face."

"You're gonna be an amazing lawyer someday.  And by amazing, I mean 'ruthless'."  I know better than to cross Sadie.  When she says she's going to do something, she'll do it.  Don't want to lose my life moments after getting it back.  "Is Lauren almost ready?"