I know that everyone has their own problems, but I'm not precisely in a good stage of my life. I constantly feel stressed, and there are a few reasons why.
•My parents. I know this stage of my life has got to include a worse relationship with them. But it's stressing me out a lot.
First, they say that I don't have enough friends, because in my group we're like 6 people. The reason for that can be because my sister has a ton of friends, but I'm not like that(?? They say that I'm really an extrovert, but I just say that I'm an introvert because I don't bother myself to make an effort and make more friends. I even spent my own birthday crying because they just couldn't shut up about it.
Then, my mom says a lot that I don't care enough about my looks, and that I'm so careless about myself. Okay, I can try, but at this point I just gave up because she keeps saying that everyday.
They also complain that I cry a lot. That can be true, because I cry almost every day. But I can't change that.
They got mad at me because in summer I went to bed at 1 AM and I woke up at 10 AM, and I don't really see the problem there but oh well.
Lastly, for some reason they want me to quit drawing. My mother says that it's the only thing I like to do and she went from saying 'you drew that? It's so cute!' to saying 'i won't judge because it's your hobby' every time she sees me drawing.
•Recently, a friend brought up something that happened 2 YEARS AGO, when I apparently did something so serious to a girl. Look, 12 year old me could be kinda toxic, but I didn't do anything serious to her. I think we argued once? Also, I spoke to this girl, and she told me that it was all okay. Then, I told my friend that she wasn't mad at me or anything and you know what my friend said? No, she didn't say 'Oh, that's good, you ignored your differences and could talk to each other'. No, she said that I was overreacting, that I got to the extreme point to even talk to her, that what I did was too serious and all that shit. Long story short, all my friends agreed with her and I isolated myself from them for a day :)
I'm looking forward to find new friends and leave all this shit behind. I think that changing school is a good idea, we'll see.
•Lastly, I had a crush on a boy, and I don't like him anymore. But he thinks that I still like him and he likes me. He's a good person and I don't want to tell him
The best thing I can do is to change school, I'll think about it for the rest of the school year, I don't know.
So these are my problems right now :))
For now, I'll just spend my life watching Queen memes jsnskdn
