Lee Felix Is Not Okay | Changlix

Chapter 5

Felix awoke the next morning with a groan. His stomach felt painfully empty. All of a sudden the events of the previous night came rushing back to him and he groaned again, louder this time. He was glad that he told someone what he was going through but he was praying that Chan wouldn't tell anyone else, he doesn't want to make everyone feel bad for him.

He decided to force himself out of bed and sit up straight, he stretched and looked around his messy room. He hadn't cleaned up in a while just because he hadn't felt motivated to, so the room was a bit messy. Clothes were strewn around the room along with old shopping bags and other miscellaneous items. Felix sighed, he should really get around to picking this up soon.

Felix pushed off the bed and stood up. He could hear the chatter in the other room now and decided to go greet everyone. So, he walked to his door, unlocked it, and made his way to the kitchen where he presumed the others were.

"Felix! How do you feel..." As soon as he had walked into the room, Chan had noticed and greeted him. The others kept talking amongst themselves and waiting for food to be ready. All except Changbin, who was sitting at the table with his head down.

Felix turned his attention back to the older boy in front of him. "I'm fine. How are you?" Felix's voice was little horse as he spoke for the first time that day. He had noticed Chan's eyes were puffy, and he realized his own probably were too, due to the events of last night. He just hoped no one asked about it.

"I'm...I'm doing alright I guess." Chan spoke with uncertainty in his tone. "You need to talk to Changbin, Felix." Chan's face had changed and he looked stern, soft, and worried all at the same time.

"Yeah, I will, I told you th-"

"No. Felix you really need to talk to him. Like, today." Chan was serious and Felix was confused. "Felix...look at him." Chan nodded his head towards Changbin.

Felix turned his head to look at him. He had picked his head up and was resting his chin on his fist. He looked like he was contemplating. His eyebrows were creased and his lips were tight. And his eyes were puffy.

Felix felt a pang in his heart. Changbin looked worn. And he had been crying. Oh my god, what if he was crying over Felix. Felix felt pain in his heart as guilt started to set it. Chan noticed the concerned look on Felix's face.

"Talk to him later, Felix. I'm serious, he needs it." With that, Chan walked over to the table and Minho and Woojin announced that breakfast was done. Felix hesitantly sat down at the table as Minho and Woojin brought the plates of food to the middle of the table. Felix was going to eat but with all that was going on, all of a sudden Felix wasn't hungry.

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Breakfast was over and the members were getting ready to do whatever they were all going to do today. The members were discussing their plans and deciding to go out and do things, all except Felix and Changbin. Felix actually kind of wanted to go out today. But Changbin was the first one to say he wasn't leaving and so Felix decided he should stay back too. He needed to talk to Changbin. What he was going to say, Felix didn't exactly know. No way was he telling him all that he had told Chan. But he'd let him in enough that he wasn't in the dark. And Felix would try not to avoid him so much anymore.

After all of the other members had left, off to do whatever activities they found amusing, Felix found himself making his way to Changbin's room. His steps felt heavy as he was anticipating what was going to happen. He hadn't even planned out what he was going to say. He felt a nervous pang in his chest and he thought about going to his room and just doing this some other day. And then he remembered Changbin's solemn face this morning and he kept walking.