Lee Felix Is Not Okay | Changlix

Chapter 13

Felix stood, frozen, for a second as he watched Hyunjin lean in and kiss Changbin. And then all of a sudden his world came crashing down. Oh my god. No. This was really happening. He was really watching Hyunjin and Changbin kiss. Felix felt tears forming as he shook a little bit, and his phone fell from his hand as he ran off.

Felix felt his heart beating out of his chest, panic rising quickly and tears threatening to fall. He ran where he felt he should, to Seungmin. Felix's breathing became messy as he approached the younger boy from behind, placing a hand on his shoulder and startling him a little as he turned around.

Immediately, Seungmin was filled with worry as he saw Felix's state. "Oh my gosh Felix, are you okay? What's wrong?" His eyebrows creased as he placed a comforting hand on the older boy's shoulder.

"P-Please, I need to talk t-to you." Felix stuttered out over his impending panic as he felt himself slightly hyperventilating.

"Oh god I'll go get Changbin and Chan!" Seungmin tried to drag Felix away but Felix stopped him.

"No! Need to t-talk to only y-you..." Seungmin's lips formed a tight line as he nodded in understanding.

"Let's go." He now took Felix's hand and walked him away from everyone else, they found a small secluded section of the park away from anyone else to talk. They sat side by side on a wooden bench. And then Felix finally let go.

Finally, Felix felt tears streaming down his face and as he wiped them away more continued to fall, he let out a sob as the anxiety in his chest reached a high and he felt himself begin to hyperventilate. Seungmin hurriedly wrapped his arms around him, trying his best to comfort him and attempting to sooth him by rubbing circles in his back. Felix shoved his face into Seungmin's shoulder as he sobbed harder, thankful for the comfort Seungmin was providing.

He tried to force himself to calm down for Seungmin's sake, but it just wasn't working out. He couldn't stop thinking, his mind racing. Changbin and Hyunjin really kissed. They really kissed. How could he ever have thought for a second that Changbin would ever like him back. Hyunjin was right. Felix was stupid.

His breakdown continued as Seungmin shushed him softly, trying his best to help.

He continued breathing harshly for a while before it began to calm down. His breathing still irregular, but not nearly as bad as before. He felt exhausted as Seungmin was still rubbing his back, shushing him gently. Felix sniffed as he sobbed once again unconsciously, and then pulled back from Seungmin's embrace to look him in the eyes. Seungmin kept his arms around him as their chests separated, and he looked at Felix sadly.

Felix noticed that Seungmin had been crying as well and he mentaly cursed himself for making him cry.

"...Felix..." Felix sniffed again and looked away slightly, another small sob escaping although his tears had, for the most part, stopped falling

"I'm s-sorry..." He spoke quietly as the younger boy looked at him in concern.

"No, you didn't do anything wrong, Lixie. But, I need you to tell me...what happened?" Seungmin spoke softly, not wanting to scare Felix or pressure him.

Felix's breath hitched as he recalled what had happened. Hyunjin and Changbin had kissed. He had seen it with his own two eyes. And Changbin didn't even try to push him away. He must've enjoyed it. He was stupid to think that he was beginning to reciprocate his feelings. Changbin would never, ever love Felix. Never. For a few days, something had been occupying Felix's thoughts. He couldn't stop thinking about it. About when Changbin had kissed him. It had been slowly eating away at him in the back of his mind, weighing him down, but he tried to ignore it. Changbin hadn't brought it up, so it must've been a fluke. A spur of the moment thing. Or maybe, he was leading Felix on. Maybe he'd liked Hyunjin this entire time and they had some type of plot to absolutely ruin Felix. Maybe Changbin just hated him.