Does Hate Fade? -Nathan Sykes

Chapter 45

So hey guys.. Sorry about the wait.. I don't really have an excuse. 

But the chapter is a bit short and not a lot going on but its got quite a bit of Lathan fluff. Lathan is Lucy and Nathan's ship name:') I use the name Lucy for all of my books, mainly because it's my middle name but i personally think Nathan&Lucy sounds cute together, so i thought they needed a ship name.. ok i'm rambling, sorry:P

Anyway, theres a picture on the side, or at the top if you're on your phone, of all the main characters. I'm assuming you can guess who's who:) 

Anyway, i don't think anyone reads this so lets just get to the chapter, yeah? ok:')

Enjoy:) Don't forget to vote and comment:) ily

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Love. 

Love is something that everyone feels at least once in their life time. Whether it's a family love, a brotherly or sisterly love, a friendly love or being in love. Everyone has felt some kind of it. Love is the most amazing thing. It's an amazing warm, comforting feeling. It cannot be avoided, so why run away from it? It can make you feel like the happiest person in the world. 

Key word, can.

Even though love is the best feeling ever, it can also be the worst. It can make someone, or it can break someone. I think that's why everyone is so afraid to love. Knowing it can make you happy, but knowing that there's that risk that you could end up hurt, heart-broken, numb. I think that's what people are afraid of. 

Some people will hide love with feelings of hate and anger. Hoping that hate can overcome love, someway. I was one of those people. One of those people that didn't want to admit my feelings because i was afraid of getting hurt. I covered up my feelings with hate, hoping that those deadly feeling would go away, leave. But of course, love always wins. Hate is something that you can only have a certain amount of in you. Too much of it can break you. But love?

Love is infinite.

You can always make more. There is no limit. 

Love is something you should take a risk for. Some people are just worth taking that risk for. The risk of getting hurt. And yes, the risk doesn't always end up being worth while, but love is a strong emotion. Love can overcome anything. 

I took the risk. 

Nathan was my risk and I'm glad I took it. 

I was scared. I was scared that because me and Nathan has such a terrible past, a past of hating one another, arguing with one another that if i let myself love him, that i would end up hurt. So i covered up. 

But like I said before, love always wins, so why hide from it? 

I've been asking myself the same question over and over for the passed couple of weeks. While looking at my amazingly gorgeous boyfriend, i'd watch his chest slowly raise and fall while he sleeps, the way his mouth stays slightly parted and the way his eyes flutter a little, making his eye lashes brush against his skin. The way his hair would be a hot mess ontop of his head and the way his hands always reach out to my side of the bed to make sure i'm still there. I always ask myself the same question.