Rambles and Experienes of Sun-he

Fears with Tears

So, I realized yesterday that even with all of the feels-inducing stories I've read, I haven't had a good cry lately which is what I did before I went to sleep last night.

So, my irl friends know that I'm pretty obessive about my grades but when I can't complete what I want academically, I usually give up and then laugh about it. I really do care about my grades, mot because I'm Asian but because I know I can do better, I can always do better so I feel like I'm doing myself a disservice when I fall short. That's when I get upset.

Whenever I'm melancholic, it's usually because I'm frustrated... at myself. I can't find fault in others whenever some sort of misfortune befalls me when I can control my actions. People aren't perfect, I know that very well but honestly, when I feel down, I want to stay feeling down for a bit so when that happens, I turn off the lights, curl into a ball, and cry. I'll cry throat-drying tears for about 20 minutes then I'll try to meld my face into a smile which slowly stops my tears, change onto nightclothes then sleep a dreamless sleep.

I think it's good to cry when you feel the need to. I know when I do it, it burns my throat, it stings but afterwards, I feel like a weight has been lifted from me. Such raw emotions that naturally results on crying should end up that way. Supressing emotion isn't a good thing and this applies mostly with guys. Being "manly" isn't being a stone-cold person. Humans have emotions and humans have ways to convey those emotions in healthy ways, when emotions are contained, they will snap out and others, including yourself suffer so I think that crying is healthy. Tears are shown as one of the most human characteristics of people, npw npt saying that people who physically cabnot cry are not people but that those who can cry but throw away, forget, or contain their feelings are missing an aspect of their humanity.

That's my two cents for today. I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Annyeong^^