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When standards of beauty changed so drastically that everyone wore masks to hide their faces.
Standards were so high that no one even knew what the 'perfect face' was anymore.
If you asked someone if your beautiful even they wouldn't know.
"Jungk...
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Taehyung made an excuse to leave early. He didn't really feel welcomed anyways, as much as some of them made an effort to talk to him, he didn't like the energy and more specifically the way Sohee was making him feel guilty for something that he isn't doing.
When Taehyung walked out of the bowling alley, he was greeted with a cold wind chill. Taking a deep breathe out, his hot breathe turned into white mist in the dark night. He slung his hands into the pockets of his coat, walking on the paved sidewalk as streetlights started turning on. He drowned himself in thought.
He's been doing that a lot recently, but he couldn't help it. He laughed to himself as he was alone walking to his car. He wished Mr.Kim wasn't his father. So what if half his DNA was made up of his father's, maybe it would of been better to not have been born. He felt a pang in his chest, feeling a sense of loneliness. Every time he felt this way, he thought of himself as pathetic.
He got inside of his vehicle and closed the door behind him. Turning on the inner car lights, he flips down the overhead mirror and he takes a look at his mask covered face. Looking through the view of the mirror, he saw how his eyes were they started turning red. Looking at himself, was a reminder of his self-hate.
He forcefully closed up the mirror as he tore his mask off and replace it with his hands. Tears started to make it's way down his cheeks, and he banged his hands on the steering wheel out of frustration. He hated when he would get like this with himself. Feeling like utter garbage, and he blames it all on his parents.
He never felt like he was loved by them.
So how could he learn to love himself?
He was always so lost but he did whatever it took to earn the attention of his parents. He only remembers his dad telling him things as if it was a command. He was scared what would happen if he didn't. At that time the worse thing that his father could of done, was to stop telling him what to do...
When he accepted the fact they never really cared for him, he started rebelling the orders his parents would ask of him, and when he did that, he got more attention then he ever did as a child.
Love just wasn't it for him, he didn't have love for himself and was always self-conscious. He thought there was something wrong with him. He'd make up excuses for the way his parents had raised him. Saying it was his fault for not being good enough for them, to spend time with him.
A piece of his mind thought to the one thing he has been looking forward to recently, and that was being with group, until Sohee made him feel like shit.
He thinks about how most of them had great chemistry with each other at the bowling alley. Even when he'd witness Yoongi and Jimin's quarrels they never fail to make up afterwards. He doesn't fail to see how when Minnie needs help with something, one of the hyung's are there for automatic rescue. He thought about Jungkook, who started it all.
