Please Don't Go

36/ I need to lose you

China

Sarah
China.. I had no clue that he told his parents your relationship was fake

Sarah
I'm so sorry

15 missed calls from Dad❤️

5 missed calls from Dove❣️

I got to my house in Atlanta  around 1 in the morning. I was fixing to fall asleep before the doorbell went off. I swear why does this always happen to me?

"I'll get it." I yawned. I walked to the door and tried to see who it was from the shadow but I couldn't tell who it was. I opened it and it was definitely not who I was expecting it to be. "Adam? NAJ DID YOU CALL ADAM!" I yelled.

"NO." He yelled back, "IS HE HERE?" I could hear him running down the stairs.

"Your dad called." He chuckled and walked in, "I saw you at the Airport and cancelled my flight to New York to make sure you were okay." He smiled. Naj ran to Adam and gave him a hug.

"I MISSED YOU." He squealed like a five year old. Adam rolled his eyes and then chuckled.

"I see that you haven't changed one bit." Adam added and looked at me, "How did you get on that plane when you're not even 17 or 18 yet?" He asked.

"Well first off, I am China Anne McClain, and second, Naj is over 18."

"This is true." Naj chuckled.

"Well, your dad told me that you only come back home when you're done." He paused and I could see the confusion on Naj's Face. "When you want to be done with your career."

"Whoa. Hold on now. You didn't mention this to me at all." Naj snapped. It took me a minute to explain myself.. I didn't even know how to explain it.

"I'm tired." I sighed, "I'm tired of this life I'm living.. I didn't ask for all the hate, all the stress, all the heartbreak." I held back tears, "This last year has broke me to pieces and this is the only place I want to be. I'm home."

"Tell us what we need to do to help you through this, and we'll do it." Adam pulled me in for a bear hug. Something I didn't know I needed until that moment.

"Time." I paused, "and distance. I need time to heal and I finally realized being near Cameron tonight that I need distance from him. I don't know for how long but our friendship can wait." I sighed.

"Do what you gotta do, Kiddo. Just know that Naj and I will forever support you." Adam smiled, "Go get some rest and we can talk more tomorrow.

"I love you little sis." Naj hugged me.

"I love you too." I smiled and went upstairs. I started to think about how my life has went downhill the last year. Cameron ending up with Saffie, realizing my true feelings for him, getting caught up with Brenna and her drama, Cameron and all the hurtful things he said to me and of course, all the hate I've been getting from everyone outside of this industry. I need a break before it's too late.

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I woke up to someone playing with my hair.. I fully opened my eyes because the light was blinding for a second.

"Dove?" I questioned.

"Hi boo." She smiled softly, "You came home." She said sadly.

"Dove.." I sighed.

"You don't have to say anything. I understood you before and after Adam had a talk with us. I'm glad you're realizing the steps you need to take back." She smiled, "I'm here, Chi. I'll always be here and I'm sorry you're feeling so low." She smiled with tears in her eyes.

"I love you." I pulled her into a hug, "Thank you so much." I whispered, "what did you mean when you said us?" I asked

"Right.." she paused, "Cameron came with me and Thomas." She hesitated. I would have been upset, but I needed to talk to him. I needed to sort things out with him and I needed to tell him that I'm not sure that our friendship can go on right now.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"Downstairs in Guest Bedroom number two."

"Take a nap. You look tired." I giggled, "I'll be back."

I went downstairs and to the bedroom that Dove described but when I opened the door he wasn't in there.

"HEY CAPTAIN." Thomas yelled.

"Sup first mate." I turned around, "Where's Cameron?" I asked.

"He went to the basement with Adam." He shrugged.

"Basement? We have a basement?" I asked in confusion.

"Well this shows how much you explore this house." He chuckled. "Your dad made it seem like you've been here by yourself numerous times."

"I've only wanted to quit my career 3 other times." I smiled sadly. "Tell him I'll be in the guest bedroom that he was staying in." I sighed. I went to the bedroom and sat on the bed. He left his sweatshirt on the bed.. I picked it up and smelled it. It's not weird, I just know I'm going to miss this smell, his smell. It's not forever but he probably won't understand it.. who knows.

"China?" Cameron came in, "Are you sniffing my shirt?" He chuckled.

"I thought it was mine." I smiled. He came and sat beside me on the bed. It was quiet.. it made me not want to go through with this. Did I need him? Or do I need to lose him to find myself?

"Take your time, chi." He said sadly. "I love you enough to let you go for now." He paused. "You're my person and you will forever be my person. I'm sorry.. for everything." He whispered.

"Cam.." I started but I knew I couldn't finish. I was already in a puddle of tears.

"I booked my plane ticket back home but I needed to say that. I needed you to know that I'm okay with our friendship on hold for you to find yourself. This isn't permanent." He smiled sadly.

"Just temporary." I whispered

"I love you, Chi." I watched him walk away but turned around when he got to the door. "Keep my sweatshirt and the beanie." He closed the door and I could do nothing but sob.