Please Don't Go

38/ This will be Okay

China

Lauryn and I were sitting in Starbucks. Mom and dad wouldn't be home for another few hours and Kar doesn't get off work for another 5 hours. We had time to kill so why not just sit and catch up? I missed my sister so much. I missed my friends so much. I missed LA but I also miss Atlanta. I'm ready I kept thinking to myself. This will be okay.

"Want to make a YouTube video?" Lou asked.

"It's a good think I brought my Camera." I chuckled. I sat it on the side of the table, "Hey Guy! It's Lauryn and China. We are sitting in Starbucks right now and today we are gonna play 20 questions."

"What's the biggest thing you've learned while being away in Atlanta?" Lou asked. I didn't have to think much on this one.. it will always be my answer every time someone asks but I was nervous to tell it to the world.

"you can't depend on anyone else when it comes to your happiness." I replied, "I should've realized that a long time ago." I smiled. "Oh by the way guys! I'm back in LA! I'm so sorry I have been MIA! One day I hope to share my story with you but right now my advice to you is to always be yourself." I smiled.

"At least you know it now and I'm sure everyone will flip when they see this video and know you're back." Lou gushed. I got up to throw my coffee away and without looking I bumped into somebody and lost my balance.

"Mother trucker." I groaned, as i was getting up from the floor. My shoulder was in so much pain.

"China?" They questioned. I looked up to a very smiley Saffie. She had brown hair this time and I'm not going to lie I was slightly freaked out seeing her, but if there's a Saffie there's probably a Cameron.

"Saffie? If I didn't know your voice I wouldn't have known it was you." I joked and faked a smile.

"I'm so sorry if I hurt you." She held out her hand to lift me up. "You're glowing." She gushed and pulled me in for a bear hug. Dove told me she was different and much nicer but I didn't think she was this much nicer. "Have long have you been back in LA? Have you seen Cameron yet?" She asked. Is it bad I didn't want to tell her my whole life story from the last eight months?

"I got back last night and no I haven't." I smiled nervously. This is not how I wanted this day to go.

"I'll call him and tell him you're here! He's actually in the next store over!" She cheered.

"No no. It's okay, I'll run into him when the time comes." I smiled. I looked over at Lou because I was so nervous. "Cut the video." I whispered.

"Well, we should catch up! Maybe have a double date. You know? Me and Cameron with you and Taj." She smiled and looked behind me to see Lou and waved. Lou waved back out of the goodness in her heart.

"Well, Maybe one day. Didn't expect the whole world to know about Taj this soon." I joked and tried not to roll my eyes. I think she could tell that I was still hesitant about her because she nodded her head and backed up a little. She grabbed my hands with a big smile on her face.

"It's so good to see you again, Chi. I'm glad you're happy." She smiled. "I'll see you soon, Take care!" She exclaimed and walked out the door. I saw her walk into the store next door and I could feel my anxiety creeping up.

"That was an act right? She can't be that sweet?" I asked. I was freaked out and I needed Dove here with me right now.

"Well, you've changed in the last eight months, right? She probably did also." Lou smiled, I hated when she wouldn't talk bad about people with me.

"I'm calling Dove." I groaned. Seeing Saffie made me want to go back to Atlanta.. it made me think that I'm not ready to be back yet.

"Yeah, you do that, but calm down please." Lou said nervously. I picked up the phone to call Dove and I was headed to the bathroom when Lou stopped me.

"I don't think you should do that." Lou grabbed my hand and pulled me back to my seat.

"Hello?" Dove picked up

"Why not?" I asked Lou

"Chi, did you butt dial me?" Dove chuckled.

"Hang on, Dove." I paused, "I need to go Lou." I sighed.

"No." She said sternly and held my hands tighter. What the hell is wrong with this chick?

"You're being ridiculous." I sighed and turned around to go to the bathroom. I didn't see the big deal. "Sorry, Dove Lou is being really--" I stopped in my tracks before I ran into him. "I need you to come to Starbucks." I said and quickly hung up the phone. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do. What do I do? I look stupid right now. I could only think of starting over like my therapist had discussed with me.

"Hi, I'm Cameron." He smiled and stuck out his hand. I looked at his hands and I then figured out that he is starting over also.

"I'm china."I smiled, "but I don't shake hands, I'm a big hugger." I giggled

"So am I." He nodded and pulled me into a hug. "I missed you." He whispered in my ear, "so so much."

"I'm Lou?" Lauryn questioned and joined our hug, "Why are we introducing ourselves."

"We're starting over." Cameron smiled and paused, "Our friendship is going to be right this time." He hugged me tighter. As much as I didn't want to see Cameron so early I'm glad I did. I missed him and I didn't realize how much until now.