A letter to you

Chapter 19: The Realisation

Umm, there might be a few One Direction mentions in this story. Sorry, I couldn't help it...:) Also, there is a bit more Dramione in this story... I'm sorry but like I'm still deciding who Hermione will choose and everything so oops :) And lastly, I'm sorry for the increase in words in the past few chapters!!

Hermione's apartment

Draco:

I heard Hermione whimpering and quickly re-entered her bedroom before Hell broke out in the living room. Looking down at her peaceful expression, I couldn't help but sigh. I gently brushed my lips over her head as I stared at her resting figure. As I started casting a silencing charm, my mind started drifting and a feeling of protectiveness settled over me as I continued glancing at her. I suddenly remembered a One Direction song with the lyrics, "I can't be no superman but for you, I'll be superhuman".

"Save you tonight!" a clear voice rang out excitedly.

I gasped and accidentally fell from my perch on her bed to the floor. Her chocolate brown eyes looked at me with a warmth that I had never seen before. I started mumbling some pathetic excuse before she enthusiastically asked me how long I had listened to One Direction. I was caught off guard and murmured a reply. Before I knew it, Hermione had her laptop open and went to Youtube. She clicked something and soon, the five voices started to chorus together in their upbeat songs.

I smiled slightly as I closed my eyes before I realised that Hermione was still there singing the lyrics in a slightly off-tune voice. It was adorable but as much as I hated to break the moment, I broke the moment. "Hermione, this is adorable and everything but I- I mean you need to rest... and ... and" Gah! I couldn't think when she looked at me like that.

Hermione's apartment

Hermione:

"Did... did...did you just call me cute?" I asked before I could stop myself. This had to be a dream... I mean did... had...He... Draco – Malfoy had just called me adorable?! As I stared at him, my mind trying to process the fact, the song, "More than This" started to play and to my surprise, Draco started singing along to the song.

"I'm blinded 'cause you are everything I see. I'm dancing alone. I'm praying that your heart will just turn around." He sang as my mouth dropped open. He paused long enough to tell me to shut my mouth before he re-joined the song with "I can love you more than this."

My heart melted. As the song continued to play, Draco took out his wand and made an action. I opened my mouth, panicked. But before I knew it, memories that I didn't know I had stirred inside me.

Flashback:

Our third year. I had nearly punched Draco until...I met him at the Astronomy tower. After the apology and explanation, he had started doing sm=ome small actions... like...like not harassing me, Ron and Harry as much as usual. I- I had met up with him again? To... to thank him and then... then I had started opening up to him about stuff. I knew about his family situation and Oh Gods... I had never stood up for him. But I had burdened him with my problems and he would still comfort me. And once, he started breaking down because of some problems so I had started to comfort him as well and... and... I would tutor him in the tower, way after curfew. He... he had brought a S.P.E.W badge and he would always show it to me by opening up his coat and showing me the lining of it where that badge was pinned in public and in private. It became our special coat although I put mine near my pocket so it wouldn't look as weird. We would owl each other with our problems. And when Harry and Ron were being jerks, he would be there for me. When Buckbeak was about to die and both of them had turned on me, he had been there for me as I spilled out all my hidden feelings. He encouraged me to go to Hagrid to let me spill out of the feelings as well 'cause he was the only person who knew that Draco and I were secret friends. Hagrid let me spill out everything while Draco was there and Draco would taunt Hagrid now and then and act as the bad guy when he knew that all three of us needed to talk, be it about Hagrid's love life all his secret hatred of something that everyone expected him to like or whatever. Everyone would come clean during those sessions. Before our fifth year, he admitted to having a crush on me. I, I had blushed and then told him that I liked him too. His expression had been so so adorable and we had kissed. My first kiss. I was so happy. We met up more often and he would tell me about all the stress that his father was putting on him... and I understood, just like how he understood me in a way that I never imagined anyone could. During the start of the sixth year, I told him about Harry thinking that he was a death eater. It had been so so awkward and I tried to laugh it off, embarrassed. We should trust each other right? I said. I shouldn't be accusing you of such weird and nonsensical things. But he showed her the mark and all I could say was, ' I'm glad you told me the truth' after that he grew more distant with me and I couldn't help thinking I had blown it so when, after many unanswered owls, he finally replied with a 'meet me at the tower' I went excitedly. And, he looked like he had been crying so I went to him and started asking him what was wrong. I was hysterical. I kept on murmuring that I thought we had been so much more than friends and that if there was anything wrong he could have just told me but he didn't answer me. And he had murmured "I have to do this. I love you Hermione but I'm so so sorry." The wand, his wand.. pointing at me. And oh Gods, he had obliviated me. And all I remembered afterwards was feeling tired and he had left while the effects sank in and I had felt so confused and left the tower... oh, gods...

End flashback.

"I'm so so sorry Hermione. I knew that it would get more and more dangerous for you to be this close to me. I was putting you in danger! So I tried distancing myself away from you. But then you were hurt. It was so obvious and I started feeling guilty and bad and everything but I didn't want to hurt her. So I had no choice but to obliviate you. It hurts, it always hurts.... To even think about it, much less say or do it. But you... at least you weren't hurt. Even when Bellatrix, when she had you, she couldn't find any memories that would make her want to hurt you. And Aun- Bellatrix can be scary when she's angry so at least she wasn't mad if not she would have done worse... way worse to you. And I- ... I was thankful at least that you were okay. Okay, you were;t completely okay but at least it wasn't as bad as it could have been. It could have been so much worse and I was thankful that at least you were spared that pain... and I had, I had tried helping you At Malfoy Manner. I tried. I placed a spell that would lessen the pain for whatever Bellatrix was going to do to you. All the pain would go to me instead. It didn't work that well, but it still worked. So yeah.. and I'm so so so so so sorry for what I did but if I had to do it all again, I would, 'cause at least you would be safe. And if I was smart, as much as it hurts me to say this, I would never have written that note... so that this... us, then we would never have happened and you won't be so hurt right now." He started as soon as I came out of my daze.