Death By A Thousand Cuts

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The only love I know hurts. A million different ways. Cutting through hearts. Cutting through dreams. Cutting through innocence, until there is nothing left but a dejected soul on a pool of blood. I don't know how to treat these invisible scars. I don't know how to cry with no tears left. I don't know how to miss someone I don't really want to be with.

The only love I know lies. A lost soul trapped in a whirlwind of deceptions. Something that you get from hard feelings mixed with contradictions. Love me while you love somebody else. Love me while you put me after everything else. Love me until I am wrong in everything I've said and done. Love me until I don't like myself. Love me until I don't know what love is supposed to be about.

The only love I know terrifies. It takes everything I like about myself, then makes a terrible monster out of it. You engulfed me with insecurities, now everything scares me. Typing these messages I've never sent. Biting my tongue just to avoid a fight. Staring at the deserted window of our conversations. Feeling small as you chose everyone over me. Silencing my pain as you dismissed my thoughts. Watching you left without saying good bye, knowing that I'd take you back every single time.

The only love I know is the only one I got.

The only love I know is the only one I thought I could get.

The only love I know is just a dirty little secret.

The only love I know is the one I want to forget.

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⏰ Last updated: Dec 16, 2021 ⏰

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