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"mama, can we live here?" xavi asked, he continued to play sa ps4 ni javi. Javi smiled, nakasandal ako sa dibdib ni javi, habang nakahiga kami sa kama niya, si xavier naglalaro habang nakaupo sa sahig.

"we'll make pagawa nalang one day so you have your own room" sabi ni javi, playing with our hands, I sighed.

"wag mo naman paasahin yung bata" bulong ko, javi tightened his hug on me, kissing my cheeks.

"hindi ko naman pinapa-asa yung bata xavienne, when will you see na seryoso ako sayo?" javi asked, humarap ako sakanya. I played with his hair, I traced his nose and his cheeks.

"natatakot akong mahulog sa'yo javi" bulong ko, smiling sadly. Hinigpitan ni javi ang pagkayakap niya sa bewang ko.

"sasaluhin naman kita xavie" he said.

"hindi pwedeng ako lang, may xavier na ako."

"okay lang, I love xavier."

"may connection kami ng ex ko na hindi mawawala ever"

"its alright, tyler's his dad and I accept that."

"I'm scared that you'll find someone better than me, yung walang excess baggage"

"how can I look sa iba when I already have you?"

"you'll be the death of javier." bulong ko, kissing his lips, he smiled into the kiss.

"and you make me feel alive xavienne." he whispered.

Natutulog si javi at sa xavier, nakaupo ako sa sofa sa loob ng kwarto ni javi, I was admiring javi's facial features, and how he looks so calm and peaceful. Nakikita ko na na-attach na si xavier kay javi. But I also see how javi tries to be a part of our lives. Siya kasama ko nagpuyat sa ospital, siya yung kasama ko nang ma discharge si xavier, siya na nga yung isang may hawak ng gate pass ni xavier pag hindi ko siya masundo.

"hey, bat gising ka pa?" javi asked, his voice all husky. Ngumiti ako, lumuhod ako sa tabi niya, kinuha ko yung kamay niya and I kissed his knuckles.

"may problem ba?" he asked, ngumiti ako at umiling.

"Javi, I love you" sabi ko, napaupo si javi sa sinabi, careful not to wake up xavier.

"I love you xavienne" bulong niya, kissing my cheeks, my nose, my forehead, and my lips.

"magririsk na ako sayo" sabi ko, javi smiled and hugged me,

"i'll take care of you guys." he said, at hinila ako para humiga na.

"now, sleep okay?" javi said, wrapping his arms around me.

"Rise and Shiiiiine" I heard juan sing, kumunot ang noo ko because binuksan niya rin yung blinds.

"wake up babe" sabi ni javi, I smiled and burrowed my face into his chest.

"gising na mama! Game day na!" sabi ni xavier, I rolled my eyes before sitting down and scratching my eyes para magising na ako.

"ligo na xavier" sabi ko, he nodded and ran to get his towel. Inilagay ni javi and baba niya sa balikat ko, I smiled when he wrapped his arms around me.

"good morning girl friend" javi whispered and kissed my cheeks.

"good morning Mr. Gomez de Liaño" sabi ni javi, javi smiled wider.

"good morning Mrs. Gomez de Liaño" he repeated, I smiled, kinilig ako dun ah.

"mama, I'm done!" xavier said, I nodded at tumayo na para ayusan si xavier. I was grabbing a maroon shirt from our gym bag when javi put his hand on top of mine.

"kami na bahala ni xavier, you take a bath and after that ako naman, then alis na tayo" javi said, I smiled at him.

Dinaldal na ni xavier si javi about sa nilalaro niyang video games kagabi, javi nodding and also telling him his insights and opinion. My heart is swelling, for javi to accept me and xavier into his heart is already a big thing.

"drive safe javier" his mom reminded us, javi kissed her on the cheeks and I hugged her, si xavier naman nagmano before siya pumasok sa sasakyan. Tito bert did the same thing, but pinauna kami sa sasakyan. I saw tito bert talk to javi about something, javi's eyes were twinkling with happiness, while tito bert put a steady hand on javi's shoulder. Tumango lamang si javi at tumingin sa gawi ko, nodding to what his father said.

"hey, you ready?" I asked javi about the game later, kinakabahan ako whenever they play against ateneo, javi nodded, putting his seatbelt on.

"I got you already, i've got nothing to lose"