Ride Home

sixteen

The car ride going to their house was silent, after einica managed to convince javi na umuwi sakanila, lahat kami nasa kotse, nakasandal ulo ni javi sa akin, jordi is asleep, naka neck pillow, kanina pa, sumisilip silip sa akin si kuya joe at juan, nakatitig lang ako sa labas, watching other cars pass by.

"you okay?" juan asked, I tried my best to give him a smile.

"okay lang umiyak xavienne" kuya joe said, tumingin ako kay javi. He probably won't remember a thing tomorrow.

He probably won't remember how he begged einica to take him back, how he broke my heart, and how einica said sorry to me. He won't remember any of it. I ran my fingers through his hair, apparently einica likes it short, that's why lagi siyang nagpapatrim. I caressed his cheeks, and how much it hurts me to see him cry. Dahan-dahan kong ipinatong ang ulo ni javi kay jordi, Itinaas ko ang tuhod ko, I cried. I cried so hard, because I don't know if this pain even compares to tyler, this hurts so much.

"katabi ni jaime si xavier iha." salubong sa amin ni tito bert, tumango lang ako at ngumiti. Nag-usap sila ni kuya joe, juan and jordi helped me take javi to his room.

"I'm really sorry." sabi ni juan, ngumiti lamang ako habang pinupunasan ko ng bimpo si javi.

"not your fault juan." sagot ko, juan placed a hand on my shoulder, an apologetic look on his face before closing the door.

Pinalitan ko ng damit ni javi, it makes me wonder kung gaano niya kamahal si einica to leave the house in just his basketball shorts and a tshirt. Tinaas ko yung comforter para hindi malamigan si javi. I closed the lights, but the moonlight illuminated his face. Mahal na mahal ko si javi. I held back a sob, and I decided to take a shower, binuksan ko ang tubig para hindi marinig ang pag-iyak ko.

Einica apologized, kung sinabi naman daw ni javi na may girl friend siya hindi naman daw niya papapuntahin si javi. Tinanong lang naman daw niya if they can talk, but javi insisted on seeing her. Six months in and this is the first time javi messed up, but what he said replayed in my mind.

"I don't care einica, just please, take me back" I am his girlfriend, for me to hear that, it broke my heart.

I think I spent almost two hours sa cr, crying. Paglabas ko kasi ay papasikat na ang araw. Javi sleeping soundly, without any care. 

"shit" I muttered when I saw my reflection sa salamin, I looked like a mess, mugtong mugto ang mga mata ko. I tied my hair and wore one of javi's shirt, bago ako bumaba ay inayos ko muna yung gamit ni xavier na dadalhin niya pag sinundo siya ni tyler. Last night, I begged tyler to take xavier today.

Bumaba ako para magluto, it was six am, the sun wasn't up yet.

"ate?" mara asked, I smiled at her, kakagising lang niya.

"tulog ka pa, maaga pa." sabi ko, it was a sunday, walang pasok.

"Can I help you ate?" mara asked, I was mixing the pancake batter so I gave it to her. She smiled, washed her hand and started to mix.

"ate, how did you know na you love kuya javi?" she asked me while I was frying the bacon.

"you know you love someone when you're willing to risk everything for that person, you always want to see him happy and well, you want him to succeed, you'll know naman if you love someone, you're willing to make it work" I answered as I guided her in flipping the pancake, hininaan ko rin ang apoy.

"kahit masakit?" she asked,

"oo, kahit masakit." sagot ko, mara nodded and cooked another one.

Natapos kami magluto, pero wala pang gising, nakakita ako ng cocoa so I asked mara if she wanted some hot choco.

"ate?" she called me habang naglalagay ako ng whipped cream, ibinigay ko yung isang mug sakanya and she smiled thanking me.

"yes?" I asked, mara smiled.

"so if kuya javi hurts you, you still love him?" she asked me, natulala ako sa tanong ni mara.

"as long as your kuya loves me and wants me here, i'll stay mara." sagot ko, she smiled.

"don't leave kuya javi ate, I want you to be my sister." sabi ni mara, sipping on her hot choco.

"if we ever break up mara, you can still call me, and text me, and we'll go on dates and bond." sabi ko, mara nodded.

"but iba pa rin if Gomez de Liaño ka ate" sabi niya.

As long as he loves me, i'll fight for javi.

*I love ate einica for javi in real life hehe, this is just a fanfic and their relationship is really goals!!!