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twenty-nine

Sinasabunutan ko na yung sarili ko sa sobrang frustrated ko kay javi.

"JAVIER!" sigaw ko, kanina pa siya rant ng rant about ricci, parang tanga.

"what? Aminin mo na, what does 'paglilihi' even mean? Did ricci get you pregnant?" he rambled, but he was driving. I rolled my eyes and face palmed.

"alam mo, gusto kita suntukin right now." sabi ko sakanya, he looked at me with sad eyes.

"what's with you and ricci? Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?" he asked, nasa harap na kami ng bahay but nasa kotse pa rin kami.

"javi, can you calm down for just a second?" I pleaded, javi took a deep breath.

"its just that, I know that I left you, and then ricci was there, tapos what if you fell in love with him na?" he kept on ranting, I feel sad na ganon yung nararamdam ni javi, pero hindi ko rin naman siya pwede ibaby. He made a mistake before, okay na yung he owns up to it.

"javi, did you not understand? Naglilihi ako kay ricci." sabi ko muli, he still looks lost.

"call your mom and her what naglilihi means." sabi ko rito. Nababanas ako eh. He ran his hand through his hair and dialed his mom's number, ako naman, nagplaplay ng videos ni ricci.

Naka connect sa speakers yung phone ni javi so when tita anna answered, I can hear it.

"javier, you called?" Tita anna's voice sounds so composed.

"ma, I have a question" javi said looking at me, ako naman heto, nagscroscroll sa pictures ni ricci.

"ano yun?" tita anna asked,

"ma, what's naglilihi?" javi asked, closing his eyes, akala niya siguro naglilihi means nabuntis.

"why? Naglilihi is like cravings in english, but for pregnant persons" tita anna asked, nanlaki ang mata ni javi,

"mama, i'll call you later." sabi ni javi, dropping the call, tumingin siya sa akin.

"so ricci got you pregnant kaya you're naglilihi sakanya?" javi concluded, I groaned.

"javi, what the fuck are you on?" I asked him, he started crying. I sighed, pacute naman!

"javier, listen to me ha?" I asked cupping his cheeks and wiping his tears with my thumbs.

"Javi, You, got, me, pregnant," dahan dahan kong sinabi sakanya, hindi ko alam kung naintindihan niya, I sighed.

"kailangan mo ba ng spanish translation?" I joked, he shaked his head.

"javier, uulitin ko ha, ikaw, you, javi, got me pregnant, not ricci." sabi ko. He bit his lip,

"then why are you so clingy to ricci?" abay gago, yun pa prinoblema, hindi yung point na buntis ako.

"kasi nga naglilihi ako?" I reasoned out.
Nakatitig pa rin siya sa akin na parang hindi pa rin nagproprocess sakanya na nabuntis niya ako. I sighed at bumaba na ng kotse, sarap sapakin eh.

"hey!" he shouted, I rolled my eyes.

"ayoko kita kausapin." sabi ko opening the door and walked inside.

Naligo na ako, at nag-ayos para matulog, pero tulala pa rin si javi, akal mo may ginawa akong kasalanan sakanya.

"paano ka gumraduate?" I asked him, while I dried my hair with a towel, nagkibit balikat siya.

Humiga na ako sa kama, I was waiting for him to join me, but naka-upo siya sa sofa, at nakatulala lamang sa kawalan. I sighed, lumapit ako sakanya and I hugged his waist.

"jave," sabi ko, he looked at me.

"I'm pregnant." bulong ko, he nodded.
Napabuntong hininga nanaman ako, at sinandal nalang ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya, he ran his fingers through my hair.

"I love you even if that's ricci's child." sabi niya muli, nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya.

"anong ricci's child?" sumbat ko, nagkibit balikat siya, I tugged my hair in frustration.

"JAVIER JOAQUIN IKAW NGA TATAY, KANINA KO PA SINASABI SA KOTSE, IKAW, YOU, PUTA ANO MAGTRATRANSLATE PA BA AKO SA SPANISH?"  I shouted, throwing a pillow at his face.

"wait, me?" he asked again, I tugged my hair again.

"help me lord jesus" sabi ko, before nodding.

"we're gonna have a baby?" he asked again, smiling. I nodded, nanlaki lalo ang ngiti niya.

"are you sure?" he asked, I showed my phone, nandun kasi yung pictures ng results from blood test and urine test.

"wait, hala." javi said, tearing up. I hugged him, I tiptoed so I can kiss his lips.

"daddy ka na javi." bulong ko. He smiled from ear to ear.

"does javiella sound good pag girl?" I playfully smacked the back of his head.