Mesperyian

Welcoming Kay-Kay

     Kevin

    A family, she called us a family. This beautiful child has already been referred to as mine before but only by me and only in my head but now someone else had said it and it fluttered something in my chest. It has sparked what little I had left of love and my life has taken a whole new meaning. I had thought I was ready I had planned everything out but it all went down the drain when I got that call. I couldn't even get myself here one of the guys had to drive me, I went crazy until I saw her. Vegas got her out to the waiting room to me. And it was up to me to convince her that I wanted this. I dont know if that was the message she got but she let me in and I couldn't be more grateful she allowed me to be here for her. She leaned on me.

She allowed me to help and together we brought this princess to the world. Together we are gonna take care of her.

I find myself standing by the window with a sleeping Kaedy in my arm and a smile on my face. The way that she got to be might not have been the proper way but the fact that shes here, the fact that shes half of what Ally is makes me so happy.

I hear the door open and look over my shoulder to see the Nurse that had taken the picture come in with a small bag and a big envelope.

"Sorry for taking long I was getting this printed." she said while holding up the envelope. I nod my head and turn around, she lays the folder down on Allys bag and heads to the bathroom followed by me.

"We usually wait for mommy to be awake for the first bath because of the bonding experience but I think you need some bonding time too and then you can help mommy learn wich will help with strengthening your relationship with her." She said while turning on the sink and checking the temperature.

After adjusting the temperature she closes the bathroom door and reaches in the small bag to get some soap and a cloth for the baby. Then she gets an outfit out of the baby bag that I had grab on my way in to the bathroom.

She picked out a dark blue long onesie with a Sunflower on it and a bib that says my sunshine! With small sunflowers on it aswell.

She adjust the baby in my hand and point toward the sink where there's a small cup and the soap waiting.

"Go ahead start with her hair massage her scalp a little in small circles with the soap/shampoo and then poor a little water over it."

I do as she said with a little help from her and look down at Kaedy and see her eyes are now open when the water runs down her head she smiles softly at me wich make me smile and do it again. I start to massage her scalp and her eye beging to flutter while her lips hold that precious smile.

I'm gonna go ahead and say theres nothing as cute as her smile. There is not gonna be anything in this world that will affect me more then that smile. Right now I know that I'm as fucked as they come. This girl is going to have full control of me and theres no way I want to be saved. If this is heaven I will rejoice in it and if its hell I'll gladly accept my punishment. But nothing and no one will keep me from her.

After a long bath to wich the Nurse complained that I was spoiling her to much to soon and that she had other babys to bathe but I was keeping her I was allowed the honor of also getting her dressed it was a little more challenging and I struggled a little but I once again managed.

When we stepped out of the bathroom Ally was still asleep and not wanting to bother her I asked if it was ok to introduce Kaedy to the guys to what I got a nod and happily made my way to the waiting room.

When I reached the door I stopped to look down the my princess who was once again sleeping bundled up in a furry pink blanket with small crowns all over it.

"Are you ready Kay-Kay? I'm not ready to share you but if I dont show you off they wont leave and I want them to leave so that it's just us and mommy." I whisper while adjusting her little yellow hat.

I push the door open and step through not bringing my eyes way from her as if if I did she would desapire and if she did I would die.

I would loose all parts of me starting with Ally and if that doesn't kill me wich I'm surtain it will I will loose my self and live out the rest of my life as a vessel with no soul.

I would have lost the important parts of myself, I would have lost that wich gives my live meaning, I might aswell lose the ability to breath I'm sure that would be less painful.

When I manage to rip my eyes of her I see all the guys standing closer and staring at me Vegas has his phone out and I can hear Lana and Jamie cooing at the sight of there niece and letting Vegas know that they will be here next week to officially meet her.

One minute I'm smiling at everyone while holding Kay and the next she is taken away and began to be passed around I loose her small form for a minute and panick at the fact of not seeing her, then I spot a small patch of pink in a small circle of 5 very big guys dressed in black and make my way toward them. When I reach I see that one of the old ladies is holding her and scooling the guys for being so stupid and holding her with out washing there hands.

She notices me and smiled while extending her arms out for me to grab Kay and bring her back close to my chest.

I reach over and immediately my heartbeat picked up and my face breaks in to a smile.

"There you go baby, back to daddy." She says and my head snaps back to look at her and find her smiling. "You look like such a proud father. I'm happy for you guys you deserve this blessing." She says and pushes me toward the door leading me back to the room with Ally.

I sit on the recliner and lay Kay-Kay on my chest and pat her back while I close my eyes.

"I promise I'll be here for you and mommy for as long as she allows me. And I'll do everything in my power to try and get her to accept me and let me be more then just a friend to her because I want more for you and her."

I start to fall asleep and decide to lay her down in the plasting bassinet they have and bring it between the recliner and the bed occupied by Ally. I look at them for a while allowing my self the joy of having the opportunity to be here with them to experience such a magical moment and to be able to see how my Ally once again showed me why I call her Mesperyian she is a fighter she molds herself around what has been done to her and allowed herself to rise above it and do better, be better not just for herself but for everyone that allowes her to be there for them. But now it's my turn, my turn to keep her safe, my turn to help her heal, my turn to catch her when she falls because even in her worst moments she has done it for me and everyone can take so much i fear she might be nearing her end.

She might not ever allow me more then just a friendship but that wont stop me from trying, that wont keep me away. Because I will gladly accept just a friendship then anything at all. If our time to be more passed then so be it but I'm gonna try because she deserves it.