Mesperyian

Getting Comfortable

   I was woken up by the sound of a door being closed. I looked at my phone to see that it had been an hour and a half since I went to sleep.

  I decide to get up and use the bathroom before Kaedy wakes up hungry, as I make my way to the bathroom I can barely make out what I belive is Kevin speaking and follow his voice that leads to the front door.

  "She's ok, sleeping. The baby is beautiful and shes starting to warm up to her wich makes me really happy." Then theres a pause before he continues.

"Mom, shes finally giving me a chance,  you'll meet her soon I promise. Yes I'm planing on it, but on her own time mom I don't wanna rush anything. Ok mom I'll call you later I love you."  And with that I headed to the kitchen so he wouldn't catch me snooping.

  It's been a year sence I last saw Kevin's mother, her names Delilah and she is the sweetest person there is. She knows I have had a thing for him for years and she also knows some of what I've been through. Shes like a mother to me, when ever shes around she would make sure that I was eating and sleeping properly. She loves the shit out of Kevin but shes crazy about me, she knows I keeped secrets and she was ok with it but she also knew that I would eventually open up to some one. And I have. Kevin now knows it all, it has me a little scared but I'm ready for this. Or so I hope.

  While standing infront of the sink with a cup of water in my hands I could hear Kavin making his way toward me and then wrap his arms around my waist.

"How was your nap?" He asks while laying his head on my shoulder.

"It was ok." I tell him while putting the cup down and turning in his arms to lay my head on his chest.

"How are you feeling?" I want to say good but I dont want to lie to him. I know that wouldnt be right.

"I'm not sure."

"Thats totally fine, why dont you go lay down and I'll make you something to eat." He says before letting me go and turning toward the cupboards.

  "Actually, I'm not really hungry. I was hoping you would come lay with me. Kaedy is about to wake up to eat." He turns with a big smile on his face and nods his head extending his hand out for me to take and almost drags me to the room.

  We lay on the bed me with my head on his chest and his arm around me his hand rubbing circles on my back.

  "My mom wants you to call her. Something about you ignoring her calls." He says and I looked at him to see his eyes closed.

  "I'm sorry. I wasnt in the best place and thought it was better to fix it alone and then get back to her and you " he opens his eyes and looks at me with a soft smile on his face.

   "You dont have to be sorry Mesperyian. You are here now and that is what matters. So when ever you are ready, doesn't have to be today or tomorrow just when ever you are ready call her. Let her know you are working on it. Ok?" I nod my head at him and he pulls me back to lay on him but Kaedy cries and he chuckles.

"I would offer to feed her but I dont have those."he says while getting up and pointing at my breast.

    I giggle at what he says and sit up waiting for him to bring her over. But notice that instead of giving her to me he starts to change her diaper and then lays her on his chest and rocks her side to side while humming.

   She quiets down and then he hands her over to me.

"I read that it's good to calm them before actually feeding them. It helps them eat better and not so desperately wich means she wont hurt you." I swear this guy is gonna break me, what little is left of me he is ruining. I always knew he was caring but this is some next level thing.

  He read books, baby books, to know what to do with a child that's not even his, to know how to help with a baby I didnt know I was gonna keep.

  I smiled up at him and positioned Kaedy so she could feed, while doing so Kevin placed pillows behind me so I could rest on them.

  "Kevin..." I call out to him wich makes him stop what his doing and look at me, I guess waiting for me to say something.

   "I know we've been waiting for this, for us to happen for a while but you should probably know that this isn't gonna be easy, for you or for me, I have a lot to work on." I say finally looking up after he sat infront of me.

"Baby I know that and I plan on being here, we." He says and pauses while moving his finger between us. "Are gonna do this together, I dont care how long it takes."

  I nod at him not really knowing what to say and lay back a little closing my eyes, I feel kevin getting up and hear him walk out of the room but I dont open my eyes or ask where his going.

   After a few minutes he comes back and places the baby pillow thing on my lap around my waist so I can use it as support for my arm and when I open my eyes his holding a cup of water and a granola bar.

"I also read you have to keep hydrated and to not skip meals so if your not gonna eat atleast have a snack." He said while pushing the granola bar in my hand.

  "Your gonna baby me aren't you?" I question him before taking a bite of the bar.

"Well if your gonna take care or Kay-Kay I'm gonna take care of you. It's only fair." He said and lays beside me.

   After Kaedy is done feeding I lay her on the bed and get up to use the bathroom, when I get back Kevin is laying on his back with her on his chest softly patting her back trying to burp her.

   I go to get in bed with him and he extends his arm out for me to lay on his shoulder so I do, he raps his hand around me and tells me to sleep a little more and with out even thinking about arguing I'm already drifting off.

  I can get used to this, him in my house, us in his arms. Building a family, a relationship, growing our friendship.

  We are finally gonna get it. Happiness, each other. And I want to be able to know what will happen but I guess I can actually start living now.

I know I've been updating every 2 or 3 days but I'm gonna take 2 weeks of, my kids school is over winter brake and we are taking a vacation to visit family so I might not have time. Stay tune. Please comment I want to know if anyone is enjoying it. That not knowing is keeping me from finishing Athena's book. I just dont feel it would be necessary.

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