Drunk Words Are Sober Thoughts

Chapter 15 - Ethan POV

Chapter 15 - Ethan's POV

I had no idea what was going on the second this all started, but now that I'm in this situation, I'm damn sure this is all a nightmare. All of this only started because Carsyn and I bumped into each other, I thought I'd be seen as a hero, and I expected some romantic crap. Apparently, that can't happen, since this gang-thug guy turned showed up and crashed my party and ruined my plans. Now, because of that, we were stuck in this damn hospital with some psycho who's Carsyn's freaking brother! Jesus, what the hell happened to my life?! To add to all this mess, I am beyond pissed with this guy, I'm sick of him thinking he's the coolest guy in the dang universe, and that he believes he can do or say whatever he pleases.

As we got closer to Jenny and Carsyn, their arguments grew louder and louder. "You were always a brat, why would we try to let you into this family?! Augh!" Jenny grabbed at her leg, flinching. "I loved my family, no matter the crap I was put through, no matter how much I wasn't loved in return. I tried to be a good little girl and keep quiet and out of everyone's way. So how was I the brat?! Huh?!" Seeing Carsyn's face as she exclaimed, everything made my heart break. When I looked into her beautiful eyes, all I could see was a sad, broken little girl, reaching her arms out, hoping someone would catch her. Her perfect face had no reason to be so angry and so sad. I wanted to be the one to save her, maybe then she could save me... She has had such a mess of a life so far, she shouldn't have been given reasons to want to leave this life so soon. The world threw a brick in her face then waited to see what she'd do about it. But she wouldn't let the world see her break, she stood there and took it to the face, allowing it only to bruise her outside, but also shatter her inside.

"Go to hell, daughter. I'll see you there, and don't forget something, Mommy never gave a damn about you, and neither do the people in your life. Always remember that, don't forget that, darlin'." My head snapped to Jenny in the last part, how freaking untrue is that?! To say that to your own daughter? What the hell! I was passed just a little mad... I was pissed. I don't care if this woman is dead or not, I'm going to destroy her! I walked over to who I suppose is Noah's dad, put my hand out, silently asking for the gun. He rose his eyebrows at me, slowly pulling out his gun. It was as if he was trying to figure out why I wanted it, did I want to shoot them? Myself? Jenny? Finally, his eyebrows drew together, he put the gun in my outstretched hand.

Lucky for me, my dad was in the military, so I knew how to shoot a revolver. I cocked the gun, resting my index finger on the trigger, and proceeded to aim it at a barely-breathing Jenny. "Stop." I turned my head to the direction the squeak came from, finding a tired, upset-looking Carsyn. "Why shouldn't I?" I questioned, raising one of my eyebrows. "She's already going to hell, let her suffer. Plus, I don't think I could bear to watch. I've watched my father die, and basically my mom too, it hurts, just please don't." Her eyes pleaded with mine desperately.

"But Carsyn, she deserves all the pain, and did you not hear this woman?! She doesn't and didn't care about you, she never did! She doesn't deserve your kindness. Watching your father and mother die should mean nothing, if not bring joy to you! It's good riddance for you, the people that were supposed to take care of you, but instead could care less what happened to you are gone! Quit being blind for hell's sake!" I was set ablaze by now, so very angry. I wanted to punch someone, something for that matter. Although, through my anger and ranting-mood, I know I'm still a small, worthless, little boy. Nowhere near a man.

"I-I can't believe you! Yeah, I know they weren't good parents, but they still brought me into this world! Maybe she's right no one will ever care about me, I'm not worth anyone's care, I know. I'm just the biggest mess-up, mistake, and I'm just useless, that's all I am and will ever be." I notice her voice start out hard, then I noticed her voice break at the end. Damn it! What had I done?! God, why do I have to be such an idiot? I reached out for Carsyn to comfort and apologized to her, but she only pulled away in return. "Carsyn-" my voice was coming out weak and small. "Ethan, just give me some time, okay?" Her eyes stayed glued to the floor, a few tears dripping onto the dirty floor, then went down the stairs, not turning back once.