~ Wings ~ Sanders Sides ~

~ Chapter Ten ~ Patton ~

Trigger warning: Self harm

I sink into my room, needing to shut it all out. The noises, the voice, the memories, the doubts, the fears, the insecurities, all of it. I crawl into my bed, holding back the tears as long as I can before the dam breaks and I start all-out sobbing.

It does nothing to quiet my mind. I start pinching myself in increasingly sensitive areas, even putting pressure on my ankle, but nothing helps.

Once all of my other options have been exhausted, I open the lower drawer on my nightstand and grab the small wooden box at the front. After fumbling with the lock, I take a razor blade and press it against my raw skin.

I pause for a split second before digging it into my skin, drops of blood welling up. The voices finally stop. I sigh and make a few more cuts, daring with one to go right next to a vein, before putting it away and tugging down my sleeves.

I start to cry even harder. I feel like I pushed Logan away by refusing his help. And Roman... he does care, I know he does, but how much?

I end up crying myself to sleep, doubts and insecurities clouding my mind.

Trigger skipper's Summary: Patton harms himself and then cries himself to sleep.