never grow up.

11. addiction

(addiction-doja cat)

(a/n: hey guys. I know it's been a year, but i decided to come back to this story because welll...i miss sooshu. I love sooshu. I hope I can please the masses with this one!)

Bzzt. Bzzt.

I hold onto my pillow, huffing in annoyance. I don't know what time it is nor give a fuck at the moment because I have the worst hangover headache ever. I can always take another sick day. I have so many hours left.

Bzzt. My phone sounded louder than usual so I decided to actually check it. It was Yuqi asking me where I was. I unlocked my phone and answered that I was at home sick. Returning to my side, I longed for another body beside me. I still smelled her on the pillows...Soojin. Her perfume with a twinge of cigarette. How I longed for her to come here and embrace me-

A loud knock on the door.

I sat up and pulled on a robe. I open the door to see Yuqi and Minnie with their arms folded. "Guys, I'm sorry I'm sick today."

"It's our off day," Minnie said, smiling. She had a bag in her hands from a bakery. 

Yuqi had given me a questionable glance before making her way into my apartment without my invitation. Minnie slid off her shoes and sat the bag on the table. The two set up the meal on the table, merrily. I just stood by the door in confusion.

 "What are you guys doing here, then?" I asked.

"You need  a break from Soojin," Yuqi replied.  When will she let it go that I'm an independent woman who could make my own decisions? All she had to say was something negative. "Soyeon had us come here to feed you after last night." 

"Soyeon or you?" I asked. 

Minnie tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "Actually, Soojin had ordered us to do that through Soyeon because she knew that Yuqi was skeptical of her. So,  we came with food." 

Yuqi sighed as she opened the take out container. "Just sit with us and eat."

Soojin wanted me to take a break from her? She was just in my bed last night, sleeping. There was no note or anything. All I remember was how stressed she was. I don't even recall her leaving the bed. I sat at the table. "Did Soyeon say anything else?" 

"How about you worry about your damn self?" Yuqi folded her arms. 

"What's your deal, Yuqi?" Minnie handed me a fork. "The way you're on Shuhua makes me think you want her for yourself." 

Yuqi lifted a piece of toast and examined it before taking a bite. I sighed and folded my hands atop my lap. "Do you want me, Yuqi?"

"No. I just know what's best for you. And I know how women like Soojin are." Yuqi looked me in my eyes. "They love foreigners. They love using people for sex and money. And they have no heart." 

"Then, what makes Soyeon so much better than Soojin? Makes me think she is treating you like that," I shot back at her. 

Yuqi sucked her teeth. "Listen to this bitch." 

Minnie slammed her hands on the table. "You two better not fight!" 

"I am not fighting a little girl who is not worth it," Yuqi sighed. 

Suddenly, I lunged for Yuqi across the table. I started fighting her like I never did before. I never laid my hands on anyone. But all the frustration I had from all those years of being called a baby. All those years of feeling pressure. I yanked her hair and punched her face. I lost my cool. That good girl demeanor was wiped away.

Minnie pulled me off of Yuqi. "What the hell is wrong with you?" She held me back with all her strength. 

Yuqi wiped her bleeding lip with her sleeve. "I guess I should leave."

"Go away!" I screamed. 

Minnie sighed as Yuqi slammed the door behind her. There was a loud yell from outside and then the door opened once again. It was Soojin. She was frozen in the doorway. I told her to come in while Minnie tried to clean the food off the floor. 

"What happened?" Soojin asked. 

"Shuhua is crazy," Minnie answered. 

I walked over to Soojin. "Yuqi keeps talking bad about you and I just lost all of control. I did not know what else to do, but retaliate." I held my head down. "I do feel ashamed." I did. That was uncalled for. I could have resolved the issue way differently. 

Soojin lifted my chin up with a crooked grin on her lips that were stained red. Her dark eyes were alluring. She made me feel relaxed all over again. The anger that was in my heart instantly turned into something else. Comfort. "You beat someone up for me?" 

"I...I was just..." 

Minnie chuckled from the sink. "She almost killed the poor girl." 

Soojin kissed my lips. I thought I was never going to see her again. I was worried. I moaned into the kiss, almost forgetting Minnie was there. I turned to see that she was barely paying us any mind. "Where did you go?" I asked her, my heart beating loudly in my ears. 

"I went out to take care of some business." Soojin sounded distant. I knew she probably did not want to talk about it. She wrapped her arms around my waist. "Lemme stay here for a couple of days. I don't have my car right now." 

"What happened to it?" 

"I need to lay low," Soojin said, her voice low. "He's looking for me." She leaned into my ear. 

I ran my hands through her hair. "Okay. You can stay with me as long as you need." 

"Thank you," she said. 

Minnie finished cleaning up the floor and slid back into her shoes. "I'm gonna check on Yuqi really. You guys do whatever you guys do. I won't be back until later. You are gonna have to talk to Yuqi." 

"She can come to me..." I sounded so unsure. Part of me did not want to even talk to her. But, deep down, I felt like it could be right...I don't know. "Whatever, Minnie." 

Minnie shrugged. "I'll see you then." She closed the door behind her. 

Soojin and I retreated to the couch. She laid on me, her ear against my chest. I played with her hair. "Shuhua....if I ever could count on you to kill someone, would you do it?" 

I gulped. "Huh?" 

"Would you kill someone for me?" she asked in her gentle voice. It sounded like a warm hug though it asked such a dark question. 

I did not know how to even answer that.