"Could Have Been A School Shooter"

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I could have been a school shooter
Don't you ever wonder what if I was a murderer
I'm pretty high up on the list
If you put aside the fact that I'm a pacifist

I came from a bad home
With separated parents who abused me each individually
Had a sick dad who is terminally ill
And a mom who was sick in the head

I have a long history of being bullied
Sexually assaulted, raped, and not believed
Tortured, burned, and torn apart psychologically and physically
Left alone for most of my life, cast aside like trash

Pent up anger and a high emotional threshold
And a high emotional intelligence that makes me dangerous
I could've been dangerous
I could have been a school shooter

But all that anger went into working, and passion
That high emotional threshold made me an ideal club leader
The emotional intelligence went into others
And my history made me knowledgeably broken

I'm not a "survivor", "victim", or a "warrior"
I could have been the kid you saw on the news
I could have been the kid you saw in the obituaries
I'm just a human who's trying to survive

Cause I'm determined to not be a school shooter

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