Connected (GirlxGirl)

8. Darcy

I paced back and forth in the living room willing my pulse to stop racing. I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to stop once we begin kissing. I thought it would be fine. I thought that I wouldn't want her as badly after last night, but I wanted her even more. And here I am torturing myself by being stuck in this house with her. Damn. I need to get out of here. I sigh at the sound of the thunder. The storm didn’t let down at all. If anything it got worse. Good thing the lights came back on this morning.
I knew she was standing there watching me but I couldn't stop pacing. I have to stay away from her.

"Darcy." I pause at the sound of her voice. "Are you okay?"

"I'm not." She begin making her way towards me but I took a step back as I placed my hand up stopping her. "Don't, please."

"What's wrong? What did I do?" I look at her and see the sad look on her face and I didn't know what to do. I've told her many times that I can't be near her and I thought that I could handle it today but boy was I wrong. My heart only begin going out of control even more. I couldn't handle it. I had to move away from her in order to compose myself.

Sighing I sit on the window seal. I wanna just slid under a rock and disappear. I didn't know that she was in front of me until I felt her hand touch my head. I had leaned over burying my face in my hands trying to compose myself leaning back I look at her and see the sorrow in her eyes. She was worried about me. Unable to resist I pull her to me and the way she so willingly came only melted my heart more. She kissed my phorehead then tilt my head back kissing me on the lips. Damn how I loved this woman.

I buried my face in her shirt breathing in her sent. She smelled so good. Why was things so confusing when it came to her? I needed her but was afraid of the outcome at the same time. She doesn't love me like I love her and I knew that but it still kind of hurt.

"Darcy..." She moans out.

"Don't moan my name." I said with humor in my voice. Trying to be strong for her but she was braking me down.

"I can't help it." She begin placing soft kisses on my lips but I pull away. "Darcy I don't understand you. One minute your flirting with me and the next you don't want me to touch you. I don't know what to do."

"Tell me about it." I mumble.

"Talk to me."

"What do you want me to say?"

"What's going on between us? I need answers..."

"Don't you think I do to? If I had the answers don't you think I would tell you? I just know that I can't be without you, and believe me I've tried. I've tried so many times but..." I pause afraid to keep going.

"But what?" She asks. Saying fuck it I say.

"I just know that I can't be without you. I need you like I need my next breath. Literally." I bury my face in her shirt again and continue. "You are my world George. My everything and... I love you." There I said it but now I was too afraid to look her in her face. Afraid I would see the pity there and I wouldn't be able to bare that. I stood and brushed pass her not daring to look back. Damn I'm so stupid.

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Georgia

Did I just hear her right? She loved me? Why did she just run out of here like that? God I was even more confused now. Well if she would have stayed she would have known that I care deeply for her also. Why else would I be willing to give her my virginity last night. And here I thought men were complicated. I went to the steps wanting to follow her but I knew she wouldn't want to see me right now. I needed for her to come to me this time. I couldn't run and comfort her this time. She needed to do this one on her own. Just this once.
In all of five minutes I was dying to check on her. What the hell is wrong with me? she was a big girl. She didn't need me following her like a lost puppy. My plams were sweating and my heart raced. She was so sad right now.