Connected (GirlxGirl)

14. Georgia

I went with my mother to see Darcy again after much coxeing from her and the same thing happened. Darcy's machines went off. At first I grew angry at my mother for forcing me to come but then it wasnt her fault that Darcy hated me. It was my own. Why was I so mean and rude to her?

Now I'm back at school and the rumors and whispers were still going on. God when was this going to be over with? I closed my eyes and took a much needed deep breath. Was this how Darcy felt when they talked about her? When they whispered about her being gay or was I the one overreacting?

God knows that I didnt want to feel this way towards this woman but I did and I've learned to embrace it and love it. And I hated it but loved it more. I'm crazy... I placed my hoodie over my head attempting to drown out the whispers. Why wouldn't they leave the matter alone.

"Rumor has it that she slept with Darcy." Someone called themselves whispering behind me. I cringed. So what if I slept with her? Who's buisness was it anyway? Definitely not theres.

"Georgia and Darcy sitting in a tree k.i.s.s.i.n.g..." before I knew it I was out my chair and pounding the person in the face. I was tired of everyone.

"You fuckin asshole. You talk about her and shes in the fuckin hospital fighting for her life!" I yelled as I pounded on the guy. "So what if I fucked her." I stopped turning so that everyone knew that I was talking to all of them. "I'm in love with Darcy Peterson and because of my fear I may have lost the one person who has ever cared about me and all y'all can do is sit here and spread rumors. I was so stupid for ever calling any one of you friends. Because of someone's sexuality it makes them a bad person? If any of you think that then you need to go to hell.

"Mrs. Garrison!"

"Dont worry about kicking me out. I'm leaving." I say then grab my stuff and walk out the room. I dont know why but at this moment I felt a load of weight lift off my shoulders. I closed my eyes took a nice claming breath and smiled. It felt good. Now what? Minutes later my phone ranged. It was my mom.

"Is Darcy okay?" I asked knowing that my mom was at the hospital with her.

"She woke up."

"Really? Can you come and pick me up?"

"I'm outside your school." I ran to the exit and saw my mom waiting for me. How'd she know that I was leaving? Pushing that to the back of my mind for now we made our way to the hospital.

I slowly entered the room and seen that she was sitting up with her back facing me. She had two gowns on to cover her completely. She smiled up at my mom and slowly half way turned to look at me. I gave her a shy half way smile and she did the same. I still didn't allow the door to close. I was afraid to go any closer.

"Georgia come in here and close the door." My mom ordered. I allowed the door to close but I hadn't moved any closer. Darcy had now turned more watching me and when I still didn't move she frowned and turned away. I watch as my mom go towards her rubbing her back in comfort. My mom then gave me a stern look and my feet slowly begin moving forward.
Once I was beside the foot of the bed I waited to see if the machines will go off but it didn't. I looked at Darcy to see the sad look still there.

"Your afraid of me." She said sadly.

"No I'm not." I quickly denied. I was far from afraid of her. I just didn't want to hurt her anymore than I already had. I watched as she held her hand out for me.

"Come here."

"You don't hate me?"

"Why would I hate you? I love you George. Please come here." With that I placed my hand in hers and willingly went to her stoping once in front of her. My mom must have felt the chemistry and immediately excused herself. I watched as the door closed and once it did I looked down at Darcy who was watching me.

I reached up caressing her cheek and she closed her eyes leaning her cheek more firmly into my hand. She buried her face into my chest and held me tightly. No words needed to be spoken we both felt the need for eachother. She did that growl that I loves so much and seconds later the machines begin going off. I quickly backed away and she frowned.

"George what's wrong?"

"The machine is going off." She quickly took the monitor off her fingure and it stopped.

"You're afraid of it?" She asked confused.

"It only goes off when I'm near you. I thought you hated me."

"I don't hate you. Baby..." she had her hand held out to me but I was hesitant to take it. She then grab at her stomach as if in pain.

"Darcy..." I rush to her and she grabs me. At first I was confused then I realized that I had just been duked.

"You tricked me?" I playfully pushed at her.

"I'm sorry I'm just tired of you running away from me." She groaned. "I'm really hurting."

"Do you need me to call the nurse?"

"No. Something else will help me though."

"What's that?" She slid her hand threw my hair pulling me down for a kiss. I don't know why but I felt I needed this like I needed my next breath. I needed her. Every bit of her. I moan from the kiss and as she slid her other hand against my ass down to the back of my knee making me straddle her lap.

"Darcy." I moan out. Her lips graze my jaw line.

"I love you so much George."

"I love you to." I watched as a frown form on her face. "What's wrong?"

"My head hurts a little."

"You should lay back down." I said as I slid off her. The nurse came in at that time. She ask me to leave for a bit while she tended to Darcy and I reluctantly agreed. But once I entered again the monitor was back on her finger and oxygen tube was attached to her nose. I freeze at the sight.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing to really worry about. We just want to make sure she is getting enough of oxygen. It's just a precaution." I nodded in understanding it still didn't mean I liked it though. Darcy looks at me.

"Come here."

"Are you sure?"

"I won't brake." She joked and I sigh.

'How can you joke at a time like this?"

"I'm trying to ease your mind. You think a lot." And boy was she right about that. I spent more then half my day thinking about everything. I had to stop doing that I knew.

I went to her as the nurse exited the room. I slid onto the bed with her and rest my head on her arm. She then turn to her side pushing my hair to the back of my ear and I look at her. I was only eighteen how could I love someone so much and so hard. I was still so confused about all this, but at least I had Darcy so that we could go threw it together.

"I don't know why I feel this way towards you. But I do and I'm tired of fighting it and being afraid of it. It's so confusing to me but I need you. Will you go threw this with me? Whatever it is?" I nod my head unable to speak. She had took the words right out of my mouth. I didn't know why this was happening but I was tired of fighting it. I was ready to embrace it one hundred percent.