Connected (GirlxGirl)

15. Darcy

I couldn't help but worry about my next movement. Where did I go from here? Today was my last day at the hospital and although I was tired of the nurses and Doctor poking at me it felt good to know I had somewhere to sleep and food to eat for the days that I was here.

I no longer had a car so I couldn't sleep there. My apartment was still destroyed. Sleeping in a shelter would be no better because I would have to sleep with one eye open. I had no money for a hotel. Here came all the worries all over again. What was I going to do? I wanted to finish school but how would I do that without security? I sighed as I was hunched over.

"What's wrong?" I whip my head around at the sound of Mrs. Garrison's voice.

"Nothing. Just thinking." I tired to force a smile to get the worried look off my face. I must have failed miserably because Mrs. Garrison had the most pitiful look on her face. Sighing again I looked away. She must of thought that it was so sad that I was in love with her daughter also. I didn't blame her. I was a nobody that had nothing going for herself. I felt my eyes filling with tears.

Dont cry. How are you a protector but all you do is cry. You are strong. You'll get threw this. But even as I thought this I dread the next hour that was to come for me to leave this hospital. I was a tall girl. Strong, but I still needed my mother. Boy would I give for her to just hug me and tell me that everything was going to be okay. That I no longer had to worry. What I would give for her to tell me that I wasn't alone. Boy was I tired of worrying.

I cringe at Mrs. Garrison's touch. I didn't know that she had moved so close. Don't you dear cry. I warned myself. I let out a slow deep breath. Then another. It didn't help. Needing something to do I grab my sneakers and slid them on.

I had to find a job then somewhere to sleep until my first paycheck then I will be able to get a room. I just hoped that I could find a job soon. Mrs. Garrison was only five six in height so as I stood I towered over her. I suddenly begin to grow light headed. With all the worry it was beginning to take a toll on me. I couldn't focus.

"Darcy have a seat." She said a she guided me down. I pinch the bridge of my nose at an attempt to make the blurriness go away.

"You're so stressed."

"I'm fine." I said and even as I say it I want to brake down. I was far from fine and we both knew that.

"Then explain to me. Why did you almost faint young lady?" Once my vision came back I look at Mrs. Garrison to find her hand on her hips as she stared down at me. I couldn't help but smile.

"What are you smiling at?"

"You look so much like George right now. Its scary." I laugh. She drops her hands as she smiles making her look like Georgia's twin. "I haven't realised how much you two look alike until now." I attempted to stand again but she placed a hand on my shoulder making me stay put.

"I have to talk to you and I dont want you to stand after that disy spell." I gave a nod and waited wondering what she had to say. She let out a deep breath and came out with it.

"Where are you going after this?" I hung my head after that question. I had no idea what I was doing to do after I walked out of the hospital. What I was going to eat. Where i was going to sleep. Nothing. I had planned on eating the school food during school just to have food for the day but it looked as if I wouldn't be able to finish school at this point. I felt as she squeezed my shoulder waiting for my answer. I reluctantly look up at her.

"I don't know Mrs. Garrison." I closed my eyes to keep my tears at bay but I felt as they seeped threw. Mrs. Garrison whipped them away and I hung my head.