Lost Minds

can i open up again?

I woke up still lying on colbys chest. He was still sound asleep I looked at him and just admired him the way his hair falls over his eyes, his perfect lips have a soft smile, how flawless his skin looks with the sun light coming in from the window. I was about to move to get breakfast but I changed my mind and just ordered post mates I didn't want to move so I snuggled close to him. I fell back asleep.
I woke up to colby moving me off him I clinged onto him. He laughed.

"Lillian you gotta get up" He said. I looked at him.

"What if I don't want to" I said.

"Fine I'll let you sleep guess that means I get all the food" he said. I jumped out of his arms and ran towards the food I ordered colby came running and picked me up from behind I shrieked.

"Colby put me down!" I said. He laughed and set me down.

"Ok ok, thanks for ordering breakfast" He said as he sat down.

"Your welcome" I said passing out the food. We talked about some stuff. That day we just hung out at home  we went and visited sam for a few hours of course.

----------------------a week later------------------

Sam is out of the hospital of course he still has his scar but I try not to focus on that too much. Me and colby have been pretty close, we're to the point where I don't know exactly what we are in a relationship he would kiss me some times and other times he would only hug me. I don't know if I could have a relationship with him. Not saying I don't it's just what if he hurts me like jaxs did I don't think I can go through that again, my friend Ari tells me to forget about what happened with jaxs and give colby a chance. I want to I really do but can I actually give him a chance i don't want to ruin our friendship cause that will make the friend group awkward but what can I do.

"Hey Lillian" Colby said walking towards me.

"Yes" I said turning towards him.

"Want to go to the park?" He asked.

"Sure let's go" I said grabbing my purse and walking to the door.

"You know for you asking to go places you take your time leaving" I said looking at him.

"Hey all I do is ask and then you are ready to leave I'm not planning on leaving the second I ask you, maybe I should start too" He said laughing.

"Come on colbs don't have all day" I said opening the door. He finally came  to the door and we left. We drove to the park and got out the car.

"We are here" He said walking towards the trunk he was getting stuff out the trunk.

"What are you looking for?" I ask him.  He looked at me and held up a picnic basket and blanket.

"When did you get that?" I asked him.

"I got it yesterday now come on let's go hike a bit" He said. We walked up a hill to the top. There was one tree on this hill making the perfect spot for our picnic, the leaves caused a nice shade against the sun, the grass was nice and soft, and the view was absolutely breathtaking. We sat everything down and sat down, colby set out all the food and drinks.

"So colby do think you will leave Kansas or stay here?" I ask him. He laughed.

"Of course I'm leaving there's nothing to do here, I don't want to leave my family of course but also this place just doesn't let me be who I am to my full potential" He replied.

"What about you do you want to stay here?" He asked me.  I looked around for a second then back to him.

"No I wanna live somewhere else I'm tired of corn" I said giggling. Colby laughed.

"So where's your dream place to live?" He asked.

"I've always had this love for new Zealand so probably there. How about you? " I asked.

"Ooo new Zealand that's nice. I've always had a connection with kuaii Hawaii so that's my dream place to live" He replied.

"Oh kuaii is so beautiful, I've always wanted to go" I said.

"Maybe one day" He said. I looked at him 'one day huh like that's gonna happen'

"Oh Lillian I have one more thing for you" He said reaching into the basket he pulled out a rose and turned towards me.

"Lillian I have this feeling towards you I don't know exactly what it is but I know it's definitely something that draws me to you, so Lillian will you be my girlfriend?" He said looking at me. I didn't know what to do my mind was going a million miles.

"Colby i-"