Bittersweet Love

Chapter 31

Carlos's point of view:

Today is the day. Logan is coming back home! I'm really looking forward to him, but at the same time I'm very nervous. Kendall told me that Logan isn't mad at me and that he even wants to talk to me about it. I don't know if I'll survive that. What if I say something stupid? Unfortunately, that happens to me very often. But Logan is my friend. He will understand me. At least I hope so …

I'm sitting on the couch with James and Katie. The door opens and Mrs. Knight comes in, followed by Kendall, Camille ... and Logan. James and I jump up at the same time and approach Logan. James hugs him first. "Great that you're back, man," he says, grinning, and pats Logan on the shoulder.

"Thanks, James," Logan replies, smiling, then he looks at me. I don't know what to do. Should I hug him? Does he want that at all?

"Hey, Carlos," he says, hugging me. He. Hugs. Me. That's really the last thing I expected. Then a terrible thought comes to me. Does Logan want to pretend that nothing has happened? Does he just want to forget it? But Kendall said that Logan wants to talk to me about it. Did he change his mind? Katie interrupts my thoughts. She also comes up to Logan and says, "Well, I never thought I'd say that, but I really missed you, Logan."

"Thank you, Katie. I'm happy to hear that," Logan replies, which makes us all laugh. He hugs Katie and then makes his way to the couch where he sits down. James looks impressed at the bandage around Logan's head. "Wow, that must hurt like hell."

"It's getting better," Logan says, shrugging. Then he looks at me smiling and once again I have the feeling as if my heart wants to jump out of my chest at any moment.

"Now I finally know why you always wear a helmet, Carlos. They can be very useful."

I smile at him. "If you want, I'll lend you my helmet."

That makes everyone laugh again.

Mrs. Knight made lunch. And we all sit at the table - even Camille - and eat, talk and laugh. It's really great that Logan is back. After lunch, Mrs. Knight says to Logan, "So, young man, you go to your room now and rest."

Logan sighs and nods. Then he looks questioningly at Camille. Mrs. Knight doesn't miss that. "I think it would be better for you to rest alone," she says in an authoritarian mother voice, but you can see that she's trying to suppress a smile. Camille smiles and grabs Logan's hand. "Come on. I'll tuck you in."

"I'm not a kid anymore," he murmurs blushing as he follows her to his and Kendall's rooms. Again we start to laugh, even Mrs. Knight.

Later I find myself alone in the apartment ... well ... almost alone. Maybe I should go to Logan? He has been sleeping for several hours now. Well, that's not a surprise. Who can recover in hospitals? So, should I look after him? Mrs. Knight would certainly do that. Carefully, I open the door. Logan is really still sleeping. For a moment, I just stand there and look at him thoughtfully, then I want to leave the room. But then …

"Carlos?"

I stop and turn around. Logan looks at me and smiles slightly. Nervously I walk closer to him. "Um ... Hey, Logan. I'm sorry, I didn't want to wake you up."

"You didn't."

It's quiet for a moment, then he says, "Carlos ... I ..."