Bittersweet Love

Chapter 21

Kendall's point of view:

It's evening and Carlos and I hang out in my and Logan's room. I sit on my bed and read a magazine, while Carlos has made himself comfortable on Logan's bed. Coincidence? Not really.

The door is opened and Logan enters the room, followed by James. When Carlos sees Logan, he wants to get up quickly from the bed, but Logan shakes his head. "It´s okay, Carlitos." He walks over to Carlos and sits next to him as James sits next to me. In Carlos's face, I can see that he would have preferred the other way around. I turn to James, "What's up?"

He shrugs. "No idea. You have to ask Logan."

I look at Logan, who looks pretty nervous at one time." Well ... I thought we could talk to each other ... "

"We talk to each other all thet ime," I reply. Logan nods. "Yes ... But maybe ... not about everything ..."

"What do you mean?" James asks, confused. "Spit it out."

"Well ... I thought we could talk about Camille and me."

"What is there to talk about?" Carlos asks, astonished. Logan nervously bites his lower lip. "There's one thing we haven't really talked about yet," he says slowly.

While James and Carlos still look confused, an idea comes to mind. "Is it about you and Camille sleeping together? We already know that." I don't look over to Carlos, but from the corners of my eyes I can see him flinch. Luckily, Logan and James didn't notice.

We wait several seconds for Logan's answer and then it finally bursts out of him, "I'm sorry, guys! You are angry because I haven´t trusted you and you are absolutely right. I have broken one of our most important rules! We are best friends and should tell us everything. But I was too busy with myself and disappointed you. I´m really sorry about that. Believe me, if I could turn back the time and make up for my mistake, I would. But since this isn´t possible, I can only hope that you will forgive me. So ... What do you say?"

James and Carlos look at Logan, then they look at me. They are waiting for me to make a decision. Slowly I say, "Logan is right. We are best friends. Yes, he made a mistake, but he regrets it. And best friends should really be able to talk about everything. So ... I forgive you, buddy." I grin over to Logan, who smiles back. James and Carlos think about it for a moment, then they say at the same time, "I forgive you too!"

Logan laughs with relief. "Thank you, guys," he said. "Honestly, if I could undo the last few weeks, I would."

"Maybe you can," Carlos says. Confused, we look at him.

"Carlos," Logan says slowly. "You can't travel back or forth in time. This only happens in books or movies."

Carlos rolls his eyes. "Yes, I know that. But it can still work and it's even pretty easy."

"What do you mean?" I ask curiously. Carlos grins and says in a cheerful voice, "Okay, Logan, you wanted us to meet here. So, what´s up?"

Now I have to grin too. I know what Carlos is up to and this idea is perfect. And gradually Logan and James seem to understand. Logan looks a little insecure at first, but then he smiles and nods. "Yes, there is something I wanted to tell you."

"And what?" James asks curiously, grinning. Logan hesitates briefly and then says, "Well ... This may come as a bit of a surprise, but Camille and I have decided to deepen our relationship. So ... we slept together and-"

"Oh my God," James exclaims excitedly and starts laughing.

"Congratulations," I say with a grin.

"Ohhh, our Logie has grown up," Carlos says, messing up Logan's hair.

After we've all calmed down, James bends over with a mischievous grin and asks, "And ... how was it?"

"What?" Logan asks, confused. James rolls his eyes. "The thing with you and Camille. How was it?"

"Oh," Logan says, turning red. "Well ... It was ... good."

James groans annoyed. "Oh, come on, Logan. Give us the details. We are best friends. We have a right to know."

Carlos suddenly doesn't look so happy anymore. Somehow, I have to distract James from this subject. "James ... " I say seriously, but before I can say anything else, Carlos gets up from the bed and announces, "I'm hungry."

Carlos's point of view:

Okay, that wasn't my best idea. But I just don't want to hear it. The others stare at me in disbelief.

"What?" James asks, irritated.

"I'm hungry. I'm going to eat something." Without looking at the others, I leave the room and go to the kitchen. I lean against the counter and close my eyes. Then I hear a door open and steps. Kendall.

"Carlos? Is everything okay?"

My heart stops for a moment. That's not Kendall, that's Logan! I open my eyes and look at him. "Sure. I'm just thinking about what to eat."

He doesn't look convinced and I can't blame him. He comes a little closer. Oh man, where's Kendall when you need him?

"Carlos ... Can I ask you something?"

I nod nervously.

"I've noticed lately that you're not very happy and I feel like it's about Camille and me. Are you possibly jealous of us?"

Panic spreads in me. He knows! What should I say now?

"I mean, because we're a couple and you're single at the moment ..."

"Ooohh," I say, trying not to sound too relieved. Yes, I ... may be."

He shakes his head. "That's not necessary, Carlos. Believe me, you will find the right person. I'm sure."

'I already have,' I think to myself and nod. "Sorry I was jealous."

He smiles and my stomach cramps.

"It´s okay. But you could have talked to me about it. After all, that´s what best friends are for."

I nod again and smile too.

"And from now on, we four talk about everything, okay? No more secrets."

I swallow. Oh man, if he only knew ... How am I supposed to promise him something like that? I have to lie to him again. This annoys and makes me sad. I don't want to make false promises to Logan, but I have to. "Yes, no more secrets," I say. At this moment, the self-hatred comes over me again. I'm a bad friend.