Infatuated (book 1)

Chapter 21 - Bonus Chapter. (Justin's P.O.V)

this is a bonus chapter in justin's pov starting from the moment they kissed until they fought on the road, i made this just to enable you to have a better view of justin's thoughts about the whole situations.

and i'm sorry ik my updates are late but its just that i'm having some writer's block even if i have everything planned out, i'm having problems putting it in words??? does this make sense or is it just me but anyways i can't promise early updates, hope u understand and if u don't then idc!!!! lmao jk but pls understand that i'll be getting results in a few weeks and i'm very stressed as i know that i haven't worked well this year and it's partly bc of wattpad (or fully!) so yah. i hate school my god!!! why can't i drop out already?

omg this was one long ass a/n and y'all probably didn't read it, lazy people!!! love u adios amigos! and also please vote & comment (-:

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♛ J U S T I N ♛

I had always been someone who loved to read and as many kissing scenes I had ever read in books or seen in movies, I never understood what made them so special. Some authors really exaggerated while writing the simplicity of the action of two people's lips touching and to me, it never was something very special.

But all of this changed as soon as my lips met Selena's. It was not an ordinary kiss and I felt all the things authors say in their books. The 'butterflies' in my stomach-even if that sounds very stupid, my stomach flipped upside down when her lips met mine. And when she started kissing me back, I knew I liked this girl so much.

The kiss was heavenly good, I still don't know what words to use to describe how it felt. But one thing I knew for sure was that I had let my defenses down somehow and allowed her to enter my life. I allowed myself to get attached to her.

She was not someone so exceptional or special. She was not a model, she wasn't very popular yet I don't know how I liked her that much. She was someone who loved to study, loved Ed Sheeran probably more than she loved herself and I also learned that she didn't have many friends but once you get to know her, she was someone amazing. She could be funny, vulnerable and cute like anybody else. She was different from the girls I met before and even though she wasn't my type of girl-I managed to develop a special liking for her.

I realized that if I kept kissing her, she'd probably think I wanted something more or anything. I couldn't let her know how much I liked her, how much I wanted to wrap my arms around her and kiss her the whole day, how much I wanted to cuddle up next to her and listen to her rambling about how Ed is perfect. I couldn't let her know that her smile could make my heart leap or her laugh could make me smile involuntarily. Since I first fell in love, I realized that the worst mistake a person can do is not to like a person but to let the person know about your liking.

If I let her know that I liked her, it would mean that she would know how to hurt me, how to play with my feelings and I wouldn't let that happen. As much as I knew that Selena was a nice girl, I wouldn't allow myself to trust somebody. God, even the word itself scared the shit out of me. It sounded so easy but once you let someone have your trust, you can never take it back. They can use it against your benefit and honestly, I always knew better than to trust someone. Or even let someone trust me.

I pulled away quickly from her, her face red and her breathing uneven. She was so cute that I could just kiss her all over again but I was way too scared by how much I liked her that I stepped back and cursed under my breath. I had to find a way to forget her or else this wouldn't be good for me and for her, too. "I have to go," I muttered and left her alone as I spun on my heels and walked out of the yard of the school. I felt bad for leaving her right there, probably thinking that she did something wrong but I had no choice. I really needed a smoke right now.