Handle It

Why!?

Video on the side is Didn't mean it by Jasmine V. I love her music so check her out if you dont already know about her music :)

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It's been a week since I got that text from Nick, I haven't spoken to anyone not even my parents. I feel lost, all I do is go to school then come home and cry myself to sleep. I know this isn't healthy but it's the only way I know how to cope with what's going on.

I climb out of bed with a throbbing headache and hurt eyes. I go to my bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror. I look like shit, but I can care less. I grab my face towel and turn on the sink water, I wash my face then brush my teeth. I take a quick shower then after showering I go back to my room and lotion my body, which looks different since I haven't eaten in a week. I sigh then get dressed in a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and Nick's black hoodie that I took from him when we were dating. I throw on my black and white Vans and just leave my hair in a messy curly fro. No point in looking good when you feel like shit. I grab my keys and bookbag and leave my room. I go to the kitchen and see my mom sitting at the table drinking her morning cup of coffee. She smiles at me and holds her arms open asking me for a hug. I walk over to her and sit on her lap wrapping my arms around her like I used to do when I was a kid.

"everything will be okay baby." She says while rubbing my back lovingly. That's what I love about my mom, she can always sense when im hurting. Tears begin to freely fall from my eyes. My mom pulls away from our hug and wipes my tears away.

"Pug whenever your ready to tell mommy whats got you hurting so much I'll be here to listen with an open mind and open arms." She kisses me on the fore head. I get up give my mom a kiss on the cheek, grab a bananna and leave the house for school.

In both my classes I couldnt concentrate because I have Chase in both classes and all he kept doing was staring at me which was making me uncomfortable. When class was over I grabed my things and put my headphones in and quickly left class. Listening to Didn't mean it by Jasmine V im wrapped up in my thoughts thinking about that text Nick sent me a week ago when I see someone standing at my car. Alaynah. I roll my eyes and proceed to make my way to my car. I take my earphones out my ears and look at Alaynah. She's standing there with her hand on her hip smiling showing off her stupid dimples that I want to just stab. Ugh! That girl makes my blood boil.

"What do you want Alaynah?"

"Oh nothing. I just wanted to let you know that im sexing your boyfriend everyday. Haha oh wait he dumped you." She teases. I take a deep breath abd ignore her even though her words sting I just ignore her.

"Can you please move so I can get in my car and leave." I ask nicely.

"No I cant."

I sigh and just give her what she wants. A fight. I throw my bookbag down on the ground then punch her right in the jaw causing her to scream out in pain. She grabs my hair and pulls it tightly.

"Let go of my hair you stupid bitch!" I yell. She just pulls it harder then punches me in my mouth busting my lip. Tasting my own blood angers me more, I kick her knee bringing her down to the floor and climbing on top of her and proceed to punch her when I hear a crack and blood flowing from her nose. She screams and thats when I realize she's not worth it. I get off of her and give her one good kick to her side before getting in my car and driving off.

I know I shouldn't do this but I need to understand why Nick would do what he did so I drive over to his house. When I get there I knock on his door and wait for some one to answer. Nick answers and looks at me confused. I just stand there staring at him when all these emotions hit me making me cry. Im so tired of crying but it's like the tears have a life of their own. He grabs ne abd hugs me, i hug him back holding him tightly not wanting to let go.

"Out of all people in this world why did you have to sleep with her?" I ask crying harder. Everytime I think of those two together I get this sick feeling to my stomach.

"Why did we ruin what we had?" He pulls away from me abd stares at me in my tear stricken eyes.

"You did this to us London dont forget that." He points out.

He grabs my hand and leads us both to the couch, he takes a seat and sits me on his lap abd buries his face into my neck. I just sit there staring at the wall with the taste of blood still in my mouth feeling guilty for starting all this.

"Im sorry." I whisper.

"Me too. Now tell me what happened to your lip."

"I got into a fight with Alaynah abd she punched me in the mouth so I broke her nose." I say with no emotion. I feel dead inside.

He sighs,"Why are we doing this to eachother?; I shrug my shoulders and continue to stare blankly at the wall. He hugs me tighter abd kisses me on the cheek. I inhale his sweet scent and sigh to myself.

"I gotta go." I tell him unwrapping his arms from around me and getting off his lap.

"Do you think you can forgive me?" He asks

"I already have." I say going on my tippie toes and giving him a kiss on the cheek then leaving. I get to my car abd tears return. I just want him back so bad but I know that we both need time apart. Whoever said love is pain, they weren't lying because I feel pain in my heart everyday for Nick.

When I got home no one was in so I just went up to my room and decided to take a bath. I filled the bath with hot water and lavender bubble bath, i stripped down to my birthday suit and climbed in the tub soaking my aching body. Halfway through my bath my phone vibrated, I grabbed it off the toilet and saw that I had a text from Nick. I take a deep breath and open it. For the first time in a week i smiled.

Nick: I miss you so much and I just wanted to know if we can atleast ve friends?

I reply yes, and finish taking my bath feeling a bit better knowing that there's some hope for ne abd Nick after all, it's just going to take some time.

Nick's P.O.V

Seeing London today and how much pain sleeping with Alaynah has caused her made me realize that I need her in my life. So if just being friends with her until we're able to trust one another means then im willing to put my pride to side and be friends.

Chase's P.O.V

I always feel bad whenever I see London. She always looks so sad and that hurts me because I still care about her, sometimes I even think that I might love her but it's time that I move on, which is why next semester im leaving California and moving to Arizona with my dad. I don't need this stress in my life especially over a girl who was never mine to begin with, but I do know that I need to make amends with Nick before I go.

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Didnt have anything to do so.I typed this quick chapter up.

Do you guys want Nick and London to get back together? What are your thoughts on Chase leaving and possibly being in love with London?

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Until next time Too-a-loo Lovies :*