Handle It

Do you love him??

"Oh my gosh Izz! I can't believe you really slapped her!" I laugh hysterically dropping onto Izzy's bed.

We decided to come to Izzy's house and have some girl time since we both have so much going on in our lives.

"I didn't like her tone of voice and plus that slap didn't hurt that idiot. She's lucky she pulled some shit like that on you and Nick because if that was Justin she pulled that shit on trust me she'd be begging for a slap when I got finished with her." Izzy throws herself on the bed landing next to me.

I stare blankly at the ceiling thinking of all the drama going on in my life. Just a couple months ago I had no worries, a family that loved each other unconditionally, friends, and school was great... Now I have no family, I've done things that are completely out of my character, I've tried killing myself, and I have this amazing guy but sometimes feel like I don't deserve his love. What is going on with me!?

"Talk to me." Izzy says clearly sensing my change in mood.

"What's happened to me? I was never a slut, a brat who her parents hate, and I definitely never had all these depression issues. Izzy I don't like who I am." I can't even cry when I say these things because I've cried too much and I feel like this is just my truth. I just need to face what I've become.

"London, this is just all apart of life and growing up. I hate that you feel this way about yourself because you were always the positive girl who can brighten up a room with just her smile. Yes life hasn't been so nice to you lately but you have to remember this is just how life works, it can't be all roses and sunshine all the time. Sometimes your going to have days where you feel like you can't go on anymore but guess what?"

"What?"

"I'm here for you until your old and grey and if your having a bad day all you have to do is call me and I'll drop whatever I'm doing and come to wherever you are because at the end of the day your not just my bestfriend... your my family and if your family can't take their heads out of their asses and see that their child needs them then I'll pick up the slack and be all the family you need. So cheer up puggy wuggy, I got you boo!" Izzy rolled over giving me the tightest hug she could, and even though I could barely breathe I was grateful than ever to have her in my life.

"Thank you Iz I really needed to hear that someone cares and has my back. I love you" I squeeze my bestfriend showing her how grateful and lucky I am to have her in my life. I can't believe we ever fell out! She's always been here for me and now I realize that more than ever.

"Enough of all my drama, what's up with you these days?" We both lay back on her bed staring up at the ceiling.

"Ugh! I think I love Jason! " Izzy smothers herself with her pillow screaming into it.

I laugh as she finishes her little dramatic moment and ask, " What's so bad about that? Love isn't as bad as you would think, it can actually be amazing and magical ." I say dreamily thinking of my Nick. He's perfect.

" Number one ewww! Number two, what fairy dust shit are you smoking? Lastly, I promised myself that after all the bullshit i went through with that idiot Danny that I would never allow myself to be so stupidly and blindly in love that I lose myself and become a door mat. Why do you think I've been such a bitch to Jason? I don't want to get hurt again . " she whined into her pillow.

"One, I don't smoke that's just how love makes you feel sometimes especially when things are good. Two, Danny was the biggest idiot in the world! He messed up the best thing to ever happen to him and that is his fault, he's a loser. Lastly, every guy isn't the same. Has Jason ever treated you anything like Danny had?"

"No."

"So why punish him for the bull that your ex has put you through. I get it your scared, but sometimes you just have to take a risk. Don't let a good thing pass you by, he could be the one but you will never know if you don't let go of the past and just have faith and follow your heart. Do you love Jason?"

"I do." She grins big cheesy grin.

"Now was that so hard to accept." I laugh before getting whacked upside the head with a pillow and falling off the bed.

"HEY!" I shout after hitting her furry carpet.

"That's what you get for being a smart ass." She laughs. I get off the floor and throw the pillow she hit me with at her head. We laugh. I've missed this...

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Later that night I was at home doing homework when I heard the front door shut. I paid it no mind because I knew it was just one of the guys. Nick entered our bedroom dropping his book bag on the floor by the door and kicking off his shoes.

"Hey." I said acknowledging his presence into the room while finishing up the last bit of my work.

"Hey, I've missed you big head." Nick climbs into bed wrapping me up in his arms making me fall back into him.

"I've missed you too." I kiss him on the lips snuggling into his body.

"I heard Izzy slapped Alaynah ." Nick laughs.

"Yeah I was upset after leaving the coffee shop and me and Izzy bumped into her. We exchanged words and she kept going on about you and I wanted to hit her but I wasn't about to hit a pregnant girl, but Izzy on the other hand she had no problem hitting her."

"I wish she'd keep my name out of her mouth." Nick sighs and scratches the back of his head, a sign that he's stressed. " I wish I'd never slept with her that night, none of this would be happening." I sit up removing myself from his embrace.

"I wish you wouldn't have either but what's done is done and now all we can do is move on. I love you Nick and want to be with you forever so if you are the father of her child I will find a way to accept it. Don't get me wrong it'll be hard but I love you and I will get past it. She will not win, we've been through a lot in the short time we've been together and it's only made us stronger. Your mine and I'm yours and that's all that matters. I love you." I climb on top of him bending down to give him a kiss.

" I love you too and I promise you that nothing and no one will break us apart." He deepens our kiss and I just melt into him. How did I get so lucky....

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Hey guys!! It's been ages since I've updated this story and I'm sorry....

So, I've decided to dedicate all my free time to finishing my stories because I have an idea for a new one but I want to finish the two I have right now. I'm going to upload a chapter every Saturday or Sunday so I can finish these stories and stop slacking 😆

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I'm going to post another chapter next Sunday, hopefully for both stories but for sure this one.