Molly | Herophine

Chapter 27: Desperation

Jo

"I love you babe, you have to know that. Please don't forget that."

It's the first time he's ever said he loves me.

He loves me? But then he cheated on me. What a fucking asshole! He must have just said that in an effort to keep me even after telling me he kissed Elle. It hurts so damn much and I can't seem to stop the tears from flowing freely down my face. It's pathetic.

I'm pathetic.

Even after the fact that he kissed someone else because he thought I cheated on him, my heart still beat faster hearing those three words. How could I be so fucking stupid? I've been down this road before with Timothy. I can't let Hero put me in the same situation of being in a relationship with someone who has cheated and will most likely cheat on me again and again.

I thought he was different. I really thought what we shared is so much more... was so much more. Well I guess I was mistaken. So, so wrong.

It's sad, really. Because I do love him.

I've always known I love him since the very beginning. The way he stood up for me during the whole Julia debacle, the way he stood up for me from Timothy's unfair verbal attacks, the way he's always made me feel safe and protected, the way I can trust him.

The way I thought I can trust him.

"I love you babe, you have to know that. Please don't forget that."

It's the first time he's ever said he loves me and yet I can't even revel in that moment. He's tainted it with his betrayal.

"I love you babe, you have to know that. Please don't forget that."

His words repeat inside my head like a broken radio, taunting me, mocking me, reminding me of how fragile our relationship truly is... was. One single misunderstanding. One wrong assumption cost us our love. He didn't trust me enough to know that I would never go behind his back and I trusted him too much to think that he would never cheat on me. I can feel my heart literally shattering, piece by broken piece, it falls to the floor where I never thought to find... not with Hero.

I love him.

Despite everything that he's confessed, it didn't seem to depreciate my feelings towards him. But I can't let myself fall into this kind of relationship-a relationship that is untrusting and fragile. I have to end it. For the sake of my heart and for my sanity. Better now than keep this going only to end up hating each other in the end.

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I've been hauled up in my room for the entire weekend, not even bothering with food and living off the bottles of water in my mini fridge. It's alright though; I couldn't seem to stomach anything anyway. I couldn't even remember the last time I ate. Was it that night on my birthday? Fuck, that feels too long ago. No wonder I look gaunt.

A series of knocks at my door forces me to get out of bed. Making sure that it isn't Hero on the other side of the door, I look through the peephole and see that it's Mercy. I haven't seen her since my birthday... well, I haven't seen anyone since that day really, except for Hero when he told me about his-never mind.