Molly | Herophine

Chapter 30: We'll Figure This Out

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

Oh and did I say fuck?

Fuck!

How could I have been so stupid? So irresponsible? Down right foolish?!

"Calm down, love," I tell her despite the raging thoughts swimming in my head. But I need to keep Jo calm right now; I could tell she's on the brink of a breakdown and that won't be any good. "We'll figure this out. You and I... together, remember?"

"Hero! How could we have forgotten to use protection?! We've never done that before... Oh my god! We are so screwed," she cries, burying her face into her open palms as she sits on the edge of the bed, still fully naked.

"We still won't know for sure yet babe."

Rubbing her hands down her face, she looks up at me as I put on my boxers. "Why the fuck are you so calm about this? This could end our careers Hero, do you not understand that?" She snaps, her brows furrowing. "Shit! You planned this didn't you?" She gasps in horror as if realizing something I'm not really following.

What?

"What do you mean?" I ask, confused at her sudden outburst seemingly directed at me as her eyes spit fire.

"You intentionally didn't use a condom! You're trying to get me fucking pregnant!" She yells, shooting up from the bed and grabbing her panties; hastily pulling it on before grabbing her pyjama top.

"Are you serious Jo? Bloody hell!" I exclaim, stunned and stung at her accusation. The thought never even crossed my mind. "For fuck's sake! I'm just 20 Jo. Even if I do really love you, I wouldn't intentionally impregnate you just so I could tie you down to me." I want to add that I wasn't thinking we be having sex this morning or point out that she was the one riding my cock in the first place but that would just add fuel to this fucking fire. Fuck! We shouldn't be fighting right now. We should be united and face this bump in our relationship... together. I watch as the fire in her eyes start to diminish until all that's left is defeat.

Her tears are freely flowing down her face now, her chest rapidly rising and falling as she tries to catch her breath from too much crying. "I don't know what to think anymore Hero. I'm so scared," she sobs, her shoulders shaking.

I pull her into my arms, rubbing her back soothingly. "Hush love. We'll figure this out, yeah? We can't be certain until a few weeks pass. We'll just have to wait and see," I say, the calm in my voice masking my own nerves. We're still so young to have a baby, our careers have only just started taking off. How the hell will we be able to take on such a huge responsibility? I'm scared, too.

Fuck am I scared!

"But what if... what if I do get pregnant? What will we do? I wouldn't want to get rid of it," despite the trembling in her voice, I could hear the conviction in it as well. And I'm relieved. I don't want to entertain abortion as an option as well.

"If you do get pregnant, love, then we'll have a pretty little Jo or handsome tiny Hero," I smile into her hair where my face is buried. She releases a breath which I could only assume is a sign of relief at my response.

"I'm sorry for going off on you like that babe," she mumbles into my chest after a few minutes of us standing, our arms around each other, seeking comfort in each other's warmth.

"It's fine, love. It's the least of our worries right now," I sigh, suddenly feeling exhausted even if the day has barely begun.

*****

Since we are filming today, Jo and I decide to set aside our current problem and focus on shooting. I stay by her side the entire time and I'm so relieved that she hasn't pushed me away, unlike the previous two weeks when she would literally flinch whenever I go as near as twenty meters from her. Now, I feel like we're slowly getting back to how we were before my confession, before fucking shit up between us.