O, take that look off your face,
you are a disgrace-
You're the thing that haunts me
in everything I do-
I know I don't need you,
but somehow I'm lost within.
I know it won't be easy for me,
to live my life out from darkening dreams,
I know it may sound kinda strange-
But every time I had written down
my deepest feelings-
trying so hard to explain my pains,
all I got was more rain.
At one time I thought all I needed was you-
yet, that's because I was confused
from all those years of lies
that you had told me day and night.
After all that has been done
you put my heart forever on the run.
O, take that look off your face-
you are a disgrace.
It had to happen, I had to face the truth
although I have seen right through you.
Somehow I couldn't find my to freedom-
I had lost myself in your lies,
I had to let all of this pain run through me
let it break me until I bleed like ink,
I have known I had to find the strength to face you.
I had to change for me,
I couldn't stay like this any longer,
all my life I had been beaten down.
But nothing like the way you did,
I still look out my window,
staying away from the sun,
because I don't know how to live in the light.
I had been locked away from life,
I never know what it is like to have freedom-
So, I still look out my window and cry.
I never understood why should I hesitate
to express my feelings of pleasures of how
I truly feel to a world that never known
I had an existence- a voice a healthy mind.
I stopped long ago believing that anyone
would care if I was alive or dead.
You made me think every living thing was agents me.
O, take that look off your face,
you are a disgrace-
And I am fighting hard to get out of this place,
even in my own silence alone, I found the rhythm
to a healthy life, where my voice is written
in a world of what you call forbidden.
I meditated on truth, on life-
yet, you never have known this, because you thought
you had broken me so badly, keeping me so sad.
Yet, I am getting stronger than you.
Because I have a strong spirit that will never give in to all your evilness.
-Judy Emery © 1996The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
