My Abusive Husband|P.JM✔️

18: Letters

(A/N: Wow I've been paying attention to the lyrics in a lot of bts's songs and I just realised that so many of them fit this story perfectly!😂 So I'm going to try fit in quite a few of them into the story, half of which will be in only one of the endings. Listen to spring day at the top after you finish reading the chapter👆)

~Hectic days keeping myself busy
Distraction filled schedule
But I won't forget
Burned into the back of my mind like a tattoo

We can't return to the old days

If I could I'd call your name no...

But I'll accept your blame

It is really time to say goodbye

*~*

What have you been up to lately?
Who are you thinking of so far away?

Life without you is really unbelievable

But even so I still gotta go
To the person I loved too much
To the red thread that got too entangled in itself
I couldn't reach you, so I'll walk a separate path
For that reason I'll say goodbye

*~*

In order to release your hand right now
I gotta let you know that I need to let you go
Hard to say goodbye But I can't run
I'm ready to let go
I'm ready to let go
I'm ready to let go

(But I'm actually not ready to let go)~

Tears ran down your face reading this letter which was left on the front on your doorstep in your rented apartment. You hugged the letter and burst into tears. It had been a few long and torturous weeks without Jimin. Without your love. Without your husband. To your surprise Jimin hadn't tried to contact you. He hadn't tried to call you or turn up at your doorstep. But that one letter touched you. It made you want to see Jimin again. It made you cry your heart out. "I wish I didn't have to let go of your hand. I wish I didn't have to let you go. But you gave me no other choice."

~I'm going crazy
Take it all away, I hate you

But your my everything (Your my)
Everything (Your my)
Everything (Your my)

Please go away huh

I'm sorry (I hate u)
I love you (I hate u)

....Forgive me (I hate u)

I need you girl
Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone
I need you girl
Why do I keep needing you when I know I'll get hurt?

I need you girl, you're beautiful
I need you girl, you're so cold

I need you girl I need you girl
I need you girl I need you girl ~

Again you burst into tears reading the next letter you received a month later. It's so hard without you, Jimin. I need you too. But I have to try and learn to be without you and you should to.