Amnesia ~reddie~

please

richie ran all the way to stans house, trying his best to hold in his tears. he had just lost his eds. after trying so hard to get him back, he lost him again. how was richie so stupid? how could he lose his love twice? he knocked on the door frantically.

stan opened the door a couple seconds later, hastily fixing his messy hair. "what's up-whoa richie are you okay?"

richie shook his head. "e-eddies g-gone."

stanley froze, his gaze becoming cold.

"s-stan?" richie tentatively asked.

the curly haired boy dug his fingers into his palms, restraining himself. "what the fuck did you say?"

another figure appeared behind him, quickly putting his shirt on. bill.

"b-babe?" bill asked, looking at them both with concern.

tears fell out of richies eyes as he repeated the dreadful sentence. "it's eddie, hes ran away."

bill glanced at stan, not liking how the boy was practically radiating anger. "c-come in, richie. t-tell us what h-h-happened."

stanley shook his head and stepped out on the porch where the tall boy was standing. "you fucking lost my best friend? i trusted him with you, richard. i didn't even get to tell him i loved him. you fucking idiot! how do you lose a person?! we had just gotten eddie back and i trust you to keep him safe. what the fuck is wrong with you?!"

richie trembled, almost fully sobbing now. he had never seen stan this angry. when they had first lost eddie, he had just seemed sad and numb. but now, now he seemed almost scary.

"fucking answer me richie!" stan shoved him and the tall boy stumbled backwards.

"you fucking lost my best friend! how could you do that?! how?" stan started crying, collapsing on the porch and leaning into bill as the stuttering boy wrapped his arms around him.

richie took one look at them, hugging on the floor, and ran off into the woods. he should've gone to beverly first. but stan and eddie were so close. richie felt like stan deserved to know.

~eddie~
eddie wandered through the forest, sobbing so hard he almost couldn't see.

why did he have to ruin everything?

he was a fucking monster and richie probably hated him. what was he thinking torturing henry like that? he should've controlled himself. he should've done better.

"i'm a fucking murderer." eddie whispered, leaning against a tree.

maybe sonia was right. maybe he did belong in a lab where all the monsters are. he killed someone today. he deserved to be hurt. he deserved to be locked up.

eddie put his head in his hands. it should be him still stuck in that dreadful place, not el. she didn't deserve any of that. she should be free.

the roaring of a vans engine brought eddie back to the present and he looked around, alert.

there was a van with its headlights on, hidden in the bushes. eddie mentally face palmed himself.

how could he be so stupid?! they obviously put a tracker in his arm before he was rescued. sonia knew the fucking plan!

shit.

the vans door opened and a man who he had never seen stepped out. "come with me, edward, and i won't shoot you."

eddie backed up, the leaves beneath his feet crunching. he couldn't go back to that place. he knew he deserved everything that happened to him there, but he couldn't go back.

the man pulled a handgun out of his pocket, his hands shaking. "don't make me pull the trigger, kaspbrak."

eddie put his hands up. "don't shoot."

the man smiled and stepped closer, falsely thinking he had trapped eddie.

eddie twisted his hands slightly, the mans neck breaking.

as he fell to the ground, eddie knelt next to him, digging in his pockets for something.

he pulled out the mans identification card.

nick huggins, age 24.

eddies hands trembled as he dropped the card. he just killed another person. he wasn't even thinking when he did it. he just snapped nicks neck without a second thought. nick could've had a family. kids to go home to. a spouse who was wondering where he was. with patrick and henry, eddie knew they were bad people. it still deeply affected eddie knowing that he had taken another humans life. but now, with nick. eddie didn't even know what kind of person he was.

eddie forced himself to keep looking in the mans pockets until he found a knife.

eddie took a deep breath and plunged the knife into the flesh of his arm, trying his best not to scream. nick could've had backup and they were waiting in the woods for any type of distress noise.

eddie whimpered as the knife touched the device inside his arm. he forced himself to nudge it upwards until it was close enough to the cut that he could dig it out with his fingers.

he took the bloody device out, trying his best not to vomit. he gazed down at his bloody arm and quickly tore a strip off of nicks shirt, wrapping it around his injury. that should stop the bleeding for now.

eddie stood up, getting ready to bolt when he heard a voice.

"eddie?"

he stopped in his tracks, his eyes watering. "el?"

"eddie, i'm still at the lab. they've sent people after you. you need to get out of derry, now."

eddie looked around. "el? where are you?"

her voice seemed to come from everywhere, like a whisper among the trees. "i've seen your file. you're more powerful than you think. you were so powerful that your own mother tried to kill you because she was scared. but she took that memory away from you for good so you wouldn't know your true potential. look eddie, don't worry about me. i can make it on my own. don't you dare come back for me, okay? they will kill you. they'll try to capture you first but if they can't, they'll shoot you, no questions asked."

eddie furrowed his eyebrows, confused at all this new information. "eleven? how are you talking to me?"

"im using my powers. now i don't have much time, so please, promise me you'll run. okay? promise."

eddie shook his head, knowing he couldn't leave his friend in that horrible place. "i'm not leaving you, el."

"eddie you better promise me you'll run! promise!" she cried, her pain filled words echoing around him.

"i'm sorry, eleven. i can't promise. because i have to save you! you're my friend."

her voice began to fade. "eddie kaspbrak youre so stubborn! you're going to get killed!"

"i'm sorry, i have to rescue you. i know how horrible that place is."

eddie waited for a response but there was none. el had been disconnected.