If I Can't Have You || Randy

He came back and surprised us.

Andy's POV

Since that day that I broke down on stage, tour had been going well. Rye was still nowhere to be found which made us more worried as days went by because we had no idea where he was or what he was doing.

Today we had the first show in London. We were currently at home getting ready to leave as the van would be here to pick us up soon. Once we were all dressed and got our stuff and clothes we needed for the show, we went out locking the door and got into the van. We all sat down in our seats and sighed.

"I hope Rye is okay," Jack spoke as he shook his head.

"We all do, mate," Brook spoke as he patted his arm softly.

"I can't believe it's been over 2 weeks and we still don't have news from him," I sighed as I sat back on my seat. 

We were soon at the arena for soundcheck and VIP and then we would just change and rest backstage until the show that wouldn't be at least 1 or 2 hours after VIP. We got in and went towards the dressing room, leaving our stuff in there. We then went on stage, putting our earphones for the music in and taking our microphones. We started soundcheck as we were on stage.

To be honest, I wasn't in the best mood to sing today. Not only today, these last few weeks of tour. I just wished that Rye would be here with us for tour. Him missing made me so sad because I knew that I was the reason he was gone.

We finished with soundcheck and went to VIP. I wasn't the happiest while talking to fans but I tried to fake it as best as I could for the band's sake. One hour passed by quickly and we went back to the dressing room. We changed to our show clothes and just sat down, waiting.

I laid on one of the couches and took my phone, starting to go through Instagram for a bit. I was hoping I would see a new story from Rye but nothing came up. He was literally gone, it was like he had completely disappeared from this world.

"Please, take places as the band will be on stage shortly," A voice from the speakers announced and we all got up.

I put my phone in my pocket and sighed as I wiped my eyes from the tears that were threatening to fall. I got up and went towards the stage with the boys. We got our earphones in and got the microphones, waiting to be announced to the crowd.

"You okay, man?" Sonny asked as he placed his hand on my shoulder. I gave him a nod while biting my lip.

"On stage for you now performing, RoadTrip!" The man said before getting off and we all ran up on stage while earning screams from the crowd.

"Welcome to this show! Thank you for being here with us tonight!" Brook said as he looked around. We started the set and I tried my best to fake a smile as I didn't like the fans seeing me so broken and lost.

After a couple of songs, 'I wasn't worried' came on. We had changed the solos as I couldn't make it through Rye's part I had without breaking down crying so we switched with Brook. This show went by quite fast and I made it through without breaking down. As soon as I went to the dressing room, I sat on the couch and broke down. It was hard, holding it all back just for the fans.

"Hey. I know you miss Rye, we all do. Well, mostly you three as I don't know him that well but I promise he will be back soon. I noticed how he looked at you the other day when I first came to the house and it looks like he is in love with you more than you think," Sonny spoke as he rubbed my back.

"It's hard being here without him and knowing I'm the reason he left. We don't even have a sign that he is alive and we don't know where he is. I just wish he could come back so I could apologize for what happened," I whispered as I looked down at my hands.