DESPERATE [COMPLETED]

Cast Away [1]

"Aren't you afraid?"

"I love him for years so why would I be afraid Gel."

"But you know marriage thing isn't that easy.", she said and sighed. "Besides you don't even know if he love nor likes you too."

Her words bring a big question mark in my mind. Bat nga ba siya pumayag? Gusto din niya kaya ako? Well, whether he likes me or not ang important magiging akin na rin siya. No words can express how much I like him. I can risk everything when it comes to the man I love.

I just smile to Gel. A smile that says Even if he loves me or not, I'll keep chasing him until he fell into my arms.

After namin mag- usap ni Gel at nagkanya-kanya na kami ng daan pauwi. Gel is my haft sister but before we knew that we were sisters we are already friends, actually best of the best of friends.

Pagkapasok ko pa lang sa bahay ay mukha na agad ni mommy na galit ang sumalubong sakin. Lalagpasan ko sana siya ngunit hinawakan niya ang braso ko.

"Wala ka talagang respeto.", galit na sabi nito. Hinarap niya ako sa kanya. "Buti naman at umuwi ka na pero minsan ka na nga lang umuwi dito ganyan ka pa."

"Magpasalamat ka at umuwi pa ako." binitawan niya rin ang braso ko at tumayo ng maayos.

"Who do you think you are?! Anak lang kita!", sabay duro niya sakin.

"ANAK O BANK ACCOUNT?!"

She slapped me hard.

Ang sakit.

"Don't you ever say that to me Carrie", mahinang sabi ni mommy.

"I hate you", I whispered. Hinarap ko siya na puno ng galit ang mga mata "I REALLY REALLY HATE YOU!"

After I said those I quickly climb into my room and lock it. I cried hard their. She's.... she's really a demon mother. I can't bear living with her in this hell.

My memories are still fresh when I accidentally eavesdrop their conversation with my dad. Pain. Hatred. Abandoned. That's what I feel.

"Louis wala na tayong perang panggastos dito sa bahay. Saan na tayo kukuha?", nahihirapang sabi ni mommy.

"Don't worry Clarrisa makakaahon din tayo sa hirap.", Daddy said positively.

I know I'm their problem. Kung di lang sana sakitin ako edi sana di kami maghihirap ng ganito.

"Kelan pa? Puta! Ang laki-laki na ng nagastos natin diyan kay Carrie! Pero saan? Alam ba ng ina niyan huh?! Di nga yan nagpapadala ng pera para sa anak niya dito! Kahit suhol man lang!"