DESPERATE [COMPLETED]

Epilogue

Life is such a play. Kung minsan nadadala ka, minsan naman napapatawa ka. But is it really necessary to be hurt when you love too much?  Maybe yes... lalo na pag yung taong minahal mo ay mahal na palang iba. Bunos na lanh siguro yung memories niyo na masaya. Pero masaya ba talaga?

Our love story isn't like others, yung tipong darating yung panahon na pagsisisihan niya na iniwan niya ako at marerealize niya na ako pala ang mahal niya. Nagising na ako sa katotohanan, he will never love me kahit na baliktarin pa natin ang mundo. Cally is for Gel and Gel is for Cally. Siguro ang dapat ko na lang gawin ngayon ay tanggapin ang sitwasyon namin ngayon. Masakit. Oo sino ba naman ang sasaya diba kung yung taong pinapangarap mo ay mapupunta lang sa half sister mo. Yung tipong half of your life ay ibinuhos mo sa kanya pero wala eh... kasi pag hindi ka mahal ng isang tao wala kang magagawa.

Two years and six months na din after all. Cally and Gel is happy and as her ex I should be happy to them. Narealize ko kasi, pano ako liligaya kung bitter ako diba? Wala eh... hindi siya para sa akin.

“You may now say your vows to each other”, the priest said.

“I Verx Cally Deos promise to love Kristine Gel Zanchee with all my heart. Spend my last breath to her, wake up mornings with this lovable woman in front of me. Gel that's the only thing I can promise I'll never promise to be a good husband to you for it may broke because sometimes there are thing I didn't mean that may hurt you. I can't give you the stars and moon or the whole word as what other said because myself is very enough to love you to the fullest. I love you to the universe and back Mrs. Kristine Gel Zanchee Deos.”

“I Kristine Ge Zanchee promise to trust and understand you in every situation. Cally thank you for loving my flaws and imperfections. Never mong jinudge ang pagkatao ko kahit na masama ako minsan. I am very luck to be your wife on this day onwards. No need to give such moon, stars or whole world babe, because your presence is enough to me. I love you very much.”

Habang sinasabi nila ang mga iyon hindi ko mapigilan na umiyak. Happy ending isn't really ours to last. Ako lang pala ang hadlang sa kanila. The two persons I love the most are madly in love with each other and now they have their own happy ever after.

Hindi ko na inantay yung you may now kiss the bride. Mabilis akong tumakbo habang pinupunasan ang mga luha ko. After ng hiwalay namin ni Cally we never had the chance to talk again. Yung biological mom ko naman ayun hindi ko na alam. Ang mas masakit pa yung nag-iisang tao na kakampi ko na si papa ay nawala the day after ng nangyari na hiwalayan namin ni Cally. I really don't understand my life that time. Hindi ko alam kung malas ba talaga ako. Five months after ng pagkawala ni papa ay ang pagpalayas ni mommy sakin sa bahay kesyo wala na daw si papa kaya wala na pipigil sa kanya. Baka daw malas ako kaya dapat mas maaga ay palayasin na ang malas.

And therefore I conclude life isn't that easy. Live in your own perspective and love someone who can love you back. There's no room for hatred in this world, keep on loving and never stop believing on it. That's why Cally I love you but right now I'll set you free for my own happiness.

Goodbye...