usually forgotten.( a magcon fanfic)

not good.

as I stepped out of liz's room,I went into Shawn's room. I just knock on the door and he opens it momentarily.

"aye, take care of liz okay?" I say

"uh,sure I guess" he said obviously confused.

"I already know that taylor is not gonna step up to being a dad so just help liz out a bit." I whisper.

"alright, so I was umm wondering.....maybe we could go out soon?" he shyly asks

"listen shawn, I already have my eye on someone. sorry, you had your chance" I say.

"oh yeah,um sorry k. just forget about it" he barely says.

I then just walk out of the house and called Gilinsky to ask if he could pick me up.

"yeah I'll be there in a sec" he slurs

"you okay Jack?" I was a little worried

"uhhh yeahhh bayhh" he says and hangs up.

"what's this boy up to now?" I wonder.

//like 40 mins later\\

Gilinsky finally pulls up and I get in his truck.

I immediately smell alcohol. he's drunk.

"Jack,why are you drunk?" I ask

"maydalyneee I am not drunkk" he slurs

"you obviously are,now where were you?" i was getting kinda angry and annoyed. like first, he picks me up late,and now he's drunk coming from who knows where.

"shatt uhpp. nooo I'm natt!" he yells

"you know what? I'm just gonna walk home!" I angrily say.

"finee gehhttt out!" he yells and points outside.

I get out and slam the door.

he then drives away and disappears into the fog.

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after a while of walking in the rain, it started to get really cold and started to drizzle.

I rubbed my hands up and down my arms hoping to get a little warmer. I took a deep breath of the cold air and blew out.

I wonder where he was. was i overreacting? was he with another girl?
he shouldn't have been driving.

ugh are we even in a relationship? I want to,but....I don't know anymore.

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I finally got to the jacks house and entered soaking wet.

"woah! madeline what happened?" johnson asked getting up and snatching a towel from the nearest closet

"gilinsky actually let me walk in the rain. he was drunk and I didn't want to ride with him,so I got out and he left." I say getting a little emotional.

I then looked up and saw gilinsky watching me from the stairs.

"didn't think you'd give up so quickly Jack" I whisper/yell from downstairs.

"come on, you wanted to get out so I let you!" he replied sounding somewhat less drunk

" you shouldn't have gotten drunk. I thought that maybe you could come after me and say sorry or somethin. I don't know." I say quietly staring at my feet.

Johnson was just watching this all go down.

I stared at both of them and ran back up to my room.

I laid down on my bed and decided to listen to music because that usually makes me feel a little better.

I just put on 'paper hearts' by tori kelly and closed my eyes.

remember the way you made me feel,
such young love but somethin in me knew that it was real
frozen in my head
pictures im living through for now
trying to remember all the good times
our life was cutting through so loud
memories are playing in my dull mind

I hate this part
paper hearts
and I'll hold a piece of yours
don't think I would just forget about it
hoping that you won't forget about it.